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The Girl In A Never Ending Daydream.

I've been suffering from maladaptive daydreaming for as long as I can remember. I've always had trouble making friends and often got bullied at school, so finding comfort in a fantasy world was a great escape. I'd talk to a friend who respected me in every way and loved me for who I am, I'd be the most popular girl in my school who had lots of friends, I'd even imagine cartoons of animals singing the songs on the radio. The thing was, I knew what I was thinking about or talking to wasn't real, so why did I find comfort? By the time I was 13 I discovered how wonderful music was, it made me feel good to sing to my dog Happy who at the time was probably the only friend I really had, but what I didn't know was that it was fuel to fantasize. I expanded my mind, often times spending hours alone daydreaming about almost anything I could put my mind to. By the time I hit high school the fantasizing became something that worried me, I understood that none of the things I fantasized about were real, but why did I keep doing it constantly, sometimes without even thinking? I thought I was crazy and was the only one who did it, and that actually put me in a depressed fog for about 5 years, but then I discovered that my problems had a name, Maladaptive Daydreaming. Now that I know that I'm not the only one I feel a little better knowing that I'm not crazy, just creative. But, I still sometimes dislike a daydream disrupting what I'm supposed to be doing.
nicoled90 nicoled90 18-21 15 Responses Mar 29, 2011

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Hey I can relate to a little bit! your not alone! I go through similar stuff as you and everyone on here. I have a lot to get off my chest so I guess I'll just probably end up venting about it. I haven't talked about it with anyone except myself when I realized that I have a problem. First off I am so happy i'm not alone in this either and I had no idea that a lot of other people around my age are struggling with the same thing as me. Now that I know that my condition has a name I don't feel like such a freak anymore. I was beginning to think something was so wrong with me. Also I had no idea that what I go through is actually a real mental illness like bipolar, depression, OCD, Anxiety, ECT. Anyway I've been struggling with MD as long as I can remember but It got worse once I went through puberty and hit high school, that's also when I was diagnosed with Bipolar. Since I've been out of high school my problem has gotten way worse I began to worry so much when my MD started taking over my life so I couldn't get a job or stay in college. Today It's so bad that it even gets in the way of just my daily routine and I'm always late for all my appointments or just meeting up with friends. Sometimes my habit Is so bad that I would rather day dream or finish a day dream first instead of hang out with my friends. :(. I didn't want to be around anyone I often sometimes feel like an introvert because I'd rather be alone in my bed room all the time and just day dream. Sometimes I day dream just automatically during the day in the middle of doing things and then that project never gets finished. Then I get in trouble for not getting anything done for the day or accomplished at all because I spent pretty much my whole day day dreaming. I don't just daydream in my head though I actually talk out loud I'm usually playing myself and talking to people as if they are actually there or to myself sometimes. Which seems so childish I know. But I just can't seem to stop! It drives me so crazy sometimes. I feel like I'm strange and that something is seriously wrong with me. Usually they are stories that I'm in and what ever characters that randomly pop up in my head even once in a while celeberties. And sometimes my day dreaming has to do with how I want my future to be and how I wish my life was right now. Sometimes the day dream is so good that I don't want to leave even if I have stuff to do. I'd rather day dream. This goes on for hours when I know I have to go somewhere or have stuff to do today I just start day dreaming instead I even act out the parts as If It's really happening for real. I've tried to pull myself out of it but It's such a bad habit that I just can't seem to stop I have to yell at myself sometimes. But It's hard I just get too lost in it to be able to stop. And this goes on for hours almost everyday sometimes It lasts longer then other days and I can't seem to ever snap myself out of it! It's nice to have a creative mind and It's fun to daydream sometimes but not so much when it gets to a point where It's taking over your life. Sometimes I wish I can just shut off my mind sometimes. Apparently It's always going! It really sucks sometimes. I day dream so much that It totally takes over my life and I become so obsessed with my day dream that I never want to leave it and go back to reality. Because of this problem I have I'm being called lazy, worthless, hopeless, never amount to anything even by my own friends and parents and It hurts.:( Because of this condition I easily get really frustrated with myself for being late all the time for everything and not getting anything accomplished I often slip into a depression because It's too much for me to handle. :( It's already bad enough that I suffer with bipolar, ADHD and high anxiety and now this too, MD might have caused my bipolar though and I may have been suffering with MD longer then everything else. It sucks because I have such a low self esteem and I'm already shy. I have so much hatred towards myself because of it. I really need some help with it! I've been suffering way too long and It's gotten out of hand! :( I'm scared to talk to my parents about it because I already have so many other problems I'm afraid that of what they will think and won't understand what I'm going through. I'm going to talk to my Nurse Practioner about it. I've already told her that I day dream a lot but she said that it's normal to day dream. But I was thinking It's not good to excessive day dream all the time where you can't control it and Is always taking over your life all the time. Ah wish me luck hopefully she can put me on something that will help reduce the symptoms. I have all the symptoms MD unfortunately. :( I'm 21 years old I've been suffering with it for over 10 years now and I want it to end so I can start living my life! P.S. sorry this was so long I needed to get it off my chest. Thank you if you ended up reading the whole thing. :) Much appreciated. :)

I've had this condition forever...Thank you for giving it a name.

Have you tried hypnotherapy? to be honest it sounds like you are in a trance like state anyways... a hypnotist would be able to give you triggers, to start or stop at will...Why not use it to your advantage? Or at least get some relief...contact me if you want more on it.

I never realized this symptom had a name... I just thought it was another side effect of my schizotypy before it turned into full-blown schizophrenia...
Thanks for sharing this. I spent most of my childhood in daydreams, and it wasn't until recently that I lost grasp on reality...

Music is my biggest downfall... I love it and need it in order to concentrate, but it does lead me into daydreaming something chronic. Thanks for posting.

Ha I'm the opposite then a lot of people on here. Music actually helps me focus more on what I'm doing. It also keeps me motivated and in a better mood. Sometimes I get lost into dancing along to it. lol

so true.music is a big-time trigger.i used to day dream to escape loneliness, the ugly quarrels of my parents,the bullies. i had a very strong urge to dance but i was never encouraged, it started as a way to enjoy this fetish.but i am 19 now.i never learned dance..but i always imagine.i also see my idealised self in day dreams,the happening beautiful girl..but its very heartbreaking to know i never really had any of this. i just dreamed my life away.help yourself to stop it. it might give temporary soothing but never heals. it simply makes reality worse.

My name is Nicole, too. You just described me as well :)

:3 Yay!

MD took over my whole life and led my grades go spiral down as academics got progressively more difficult. I'm still trying to battle it by facing all of my problems, all of my duties and not running away from them. What helps is also always surround yourself by people that care about you and interacting with them the most you can so you'll feel good enough about yourself to not delve into a fantasy land

From what I have read, I believe that MD symptoms seems to be a natural way the mind copes with the situation/circumstances a person is living in i.e if they are in an abusive situation where they feel helpless and not in control, our daydreams are a way in which we can have control over things in our life as we choose the image, story or words. Talking to yourself is a way to release those thoughts you may not feel comfortable to actually say to another person but can feel safe and comfortable talking to yourself.Overall I think it is ok to do things you are saying in your story being aware of not letting yourself be consumed by them e.g. daydreaming away and not actually living your life and talking to yourself so much you lose social connections with real people.Enjoy the daydreams in your head but also enjoy the real world you live in as well.

Hello, I feel the same way because ive been dreaming forever since i was 6 years old, i can remember my first day ive dream of something and for about ten years i have kinda the same scenero but different characters, its gone better now, try meditating it helps a little and being aware. Daydreaming turn into anxiety later on cause i have the same bad dreams over and over again in my head. i have no problem with my daydreaming except i nowhave anxiety.

@Paramorefan123: Oh my gosh! I write stories ba<x>sed off of my daydreams already! :) I love it! My stories are completely ba<x>sed off of a celebrity crush I have and right now I am writing a fantasy novel called The Kandy Life.<br />
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@buckwheatme: Good luck on stopping your daydreaming completely, but I love my daydreaming and I don't plan on stopping it anytime soon. I'm starting to learn how to limit the amount of time I spend daydreaming so it doesn't COMPLETELY control my life, but I DON'T want to quit doing it.

i daydream as well ,sometimes my day dreams follow a film or a book that im interested in at the time i.e i imagine say how to story continues or make up my own version, ive daydreamed since i can remember and like you i also was bullied from a young age and my only friend seemed to be my dog lady, lol. i tried to tell my nan about it but she didn't have a clue what i was going on about,, it controls my life and i daydream everyday and at least an hour or two before i go to sleep at night. you should use your imagination to write stories and songs thats what i do lol

I've been daydreaming for about five years aswell. You have too let go of it all. So fare ive been able to stop day dreaming for three days staright. Cold turkey. You have to quite. Im turing eighteen so some times you have to say the hell with this shittt and let go. I wrote down my life in a time fr<x>ame up until this point and it really helped me. Im goiing the distance you should too. :). It feels good to be mentally clear for three days and counting. Let go . Forgive and forget. Never regret and pursue the person you want to be.

I've been daydreaming for about five years aswell. You have too let go of it all. So fare ive been able to stop day dreaming for three days staright. Cold turkey. You have to quite. Im turing eighteen so some times you have to say the hell with this shittt and let go. I wrote down my life in a time fr<x>ame up until this point and it really helped me. Im goiing the distance you should too. :). It feels good to be mentally clear for three days and counting. Let go . Forgive and forget. Never regret and pursue the person you want to be.

I've been daydreaming for about five years aswell. You have too let go of it all. So fare ive been able to stop day dreaming for three days staright. Cold turkey. You have to quite. Im turing eighteen so some times you have to say the hell with this shittt and let go. I wrote down my life in a time fr<x>ame up until this point and it really helped me. Im goiing the distance you should too. :). It feels good to be mentally clear for three days and counting. Let go . Forgive and forget. Never regret and pursue the person you want to be.