I Thought It Was Real LifeI've always have had MD. I remember having friends but not alot, only a few. I remember seeing Thing 1 and Thing 2 from Cat in The Hat. I would see everything in the books and the movies I saw. I'd daydream about having a better life. One with the father who isnt abusive and a mother who isnt on drugs. And not being adotped. I'd daydream about having my prince charming come and get me and take me away. Daydreaming to me was like breathing. I would do it 24/7. And I still do. I don't know how to deal with it. And still to a point I think its still is real life.
I didn't know at first that it was MD. I thought I had a big imagination but truly its MD. I found out not that long ago. My brother(that is not my true brother) found me talking to myself. I couldn't even see him when I was daydreaming. He walked around with me but I didn't see him. When I finally saw him I was still talking to myself. He touched me and thats when I really noticed that he saw me. I started crying and telling him I was so sorry. And then I started explaining to him what i was doing. I told him that I couldn't stop it. It was like a heart beat, I needed it. Or To me it was life.
I don't know how to get "over" MD. Or how to make it not come so much. But It now happens every second of each day. And its scarying me because I read a story about a girl that had MD and she went crazy. She went crazy because she thought that a movie she watched was real life. She drove herself to it. And I'm afraid that, that is what I'm doing. And I feel like I can't stop it...
HopingForABetterTomorrow 16-17, F 3 Responses 0 Jun 19, 2011