Daydreaming About My Daydreaming ProblemFor as long as I can remember I've loved daydreaming. It was a way of killing boredom, a way of expressing my true thoughts and emotions. It wasn't until recently though, that I found I wasn't the only one who did this excessively, and that there was an actual medical term for it. I actually cried when I found out, it was so amazing to finally know I wasn't insane and that I wasn't alone, but I still found it so embarrassing! I could never bring myself to talk to anyone about, and knowing there was help out there that I wasn't asking for, only made me feel more alone. I started to feel awkward when I daydreamed, letting little thoughts slip in like, "you know none of this is real, right?" or "this is never actually going to happen, no matter how much you wish about it!". It was making me feel upset, in the one place that could never make me upset! Everything I wanted out of life, instead of doing it, I was daydreaming it way. Finally I decided if I wasn't going to get help, I'd make my own. And that's exactly what I did, I researched steps I should take to avoid triggers and things to do when I'm alone. My daydreaming isn't gone, I don't know if it ever will be and I don't know if I'd ever want it to be completely gone. All I'm saying is if you're as stubborn and embarrassed as I was, take it into your own hands! Control YOUR life, do what you want to do. Grab every opportunity, and if one doesn't arise, create one!
Stay positive, stay passionate.
LivingWithCynthia 18-21 1 May 21, 2012