I Hate This..it Makes Me Feel As If I'm Crazy
i have maladaptive daydreaming i can go as far as being 7 and having a very crazy imagination. i was sexually abused for 13 years and i understand that my day dreaming came from this or i hope it did . I'Sometimes i wouldn't get up from bed a whole day, just daydreaming my life away. I would reinvent my whole life in those moments. I'm 22 years old and i have a baby and it makes me afraid sometimes because i live my life as if i was split in 2..in my fantasy world I'm a god or sometimes I'm just happy or i just am a total different person, in my real life I'm a mom i have a career and a husband but none knows this. i watch movies or listen to music and i create something from any feelings i get from the movies or the song lyrics..sometimes when i fight with my husband i pretend that i don't love him anymore and that I'm a single mom or that he's completely different and it helps me get over the real issues.. idont know if i really am crazy or its just an effect from the abuse. but i wish there was some kind of way to stop it. It makes me feel crazy..