A Mental Entertainment

I did not know there is a legitimate name for this type of daydreaming. I have always thought it is only childish me who does this!

As I remember, it started when my brother gave me my first manga/comic book. The storyline was so mesmerising it captured my thoughts all days and nights. Unconsciously I began to 'act' in my dream: Took an identity, set up a role and blended into the story. I got huge fun out of it and could not stop. When the thought popped up, it was there for me to join the play. I could daydream regardless of when and where I was; I simply could not sleep straight because of this: only when my mind went exhausted faded the fantasy.

At older age I created complex plots in my mind switching between roles representing my mood. A mix of action/comedy/romance from randomly normal living scenes to intensely fantasised act. My family called me a heavy dreamer, my mom often joked 'Again my daughter disappeared to the other world in the middle of the dinner' cos I could just routinely eat while my eyes went off-focus as my mind deepened itself in its own realm. Of course they never knew where my imagination truly lied upon although they got amused by my sudden laughter or subsequently weird facial expression. I once asked my friends if they ever did that and they all sort of laughed, 'Having fun with imaginary friends, ey?'.('I actually am. With LOADS of them'). I tried to deter it from being ignited, had to distant myself from any possible catalyst (drama, comic book, celebrity crush etc) but meh.

However, although it is called a disorder, I find this type of mental entertainment helps e.g during depression: I can turn on the music and immediately escape to my perfect kingdom. Plus I can obtain an enormous stock of creativity thanks to my off-track daydreams which helps me in various artistic tasks. Undeniably this habit also distracts me a lot and I know I'm wasting my time but I could not depart myself from it. It's too wonderful and addictive to get out.

And I thought I was being a kid, not knowing this is actually a disorder until now. A weird feeling arises.

RedSmile RedSmile
18-21, F
6 Responses Dec 28, 2012

I never knew this was a thing until today, and I can relate to every single MD story... god this is so weird and somehow it still feels nice to be able to label what i'm feeling

i went on youtube the other night to try and put a name to what it was i had but this came the closest to anything, only it silence that makes me day dream, i am so good at it i can do while i drive a car or while i am a work, and i work with machines but i have been doing it since i was 9 yrs old and i am now 52, i worked and had 2 kids and was married for 19 yrs, he was such a control freak i could not have friends but it did not matter because when we got together all my freinds were in my head any way, so it is possible to have some sort of life with this but it does not help when you rather stay awake at night living in a world in your head rather than sleep in the real one i am just glad i am not alone with this and i know have a name to put towards it

I have MD too. I'm looking to write a book on my own experiences as well as others. Please let me know if you'd ever like to chat about it.

I can completely relate

I was smiling in the shower like an idiot and was there for a half an hour, weaving a story. I just realized my daydreaming was going out of hand. As fun as it is, I don't think it's healthy that I'm overdoing it.

I can deffo relate as my mates notice as well and I have to lie like hell and I cant tell anybody as
everybody already knows I am weird I get funny looks, ignored and the skinny popular kids look down their noses at me uptight *******

Hey sorry for late rep but yea I know what you meant. Friends are normally pressured to 'stay cool' hence become ignorant/act disgusted against other's oddity but I hope you can stand out by your own way and hey, we have our whole kingdom to escape to anytime!