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My Own Little World

I had literally found this out no more than 15 minutes ago, from a question asked by a certain member on here. I am self diagnosing myself with this because it's exactly what happens.

This has been happening to me since I was about 15 years old. It started off as just a simple fantasy..I remember realizing that I could just fantasize about different things, different lives as if I had a different life in a different body, in my bed at night. I do this every night before I go to sleep, sometimes when I wake up, if I don't have to do anything.

I find it odd. I know it's not real but it's almost like a lousy simulation. I can see it for myself but faintly. I can feel it around me, hear the people I'm with in my day dream around me and a lot of it becomes real, so long as the people I know aren't around, call my name, see myself in a photo or a picture or even when people get me to do daily activities with them. I would rather live in my own fantasy than to ever live in a place as myself where I am nothing to no one, except the times when THEY need help.

Being in them makes me feel incredibly happy because I get to be who I want to be and no one else can change that. In my fantasies, I'm noticed, people talk to me and people want me around as a friend. Sometimes I get to have super powers and save the world, become a hero or sometimes I get to just be myself but also, not myself.

I think this is the root all my problems. Why It's so difficult to go out in the daily world and face myself as myself and nothing else. I constantly ignore my body, I constantly ignore my image and I just believe that friends and family don't like me because well, I don't like myself. I know I need to change, I just don't know how. Hopefully there is a cure for this.
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I am unable to send you messages they return stating your account is invalid. I've been looking into this very thing. Seems as if acceptance, recognition, being a savior and for lack of better words 'being liked' is the theme with most people. Only if we had some sort of super powers to save the world or people we want to impressed we'd get instant approval and make it stick. I have these kinds of daydreams too.