My Own Little WorldI had literally found this out no more than 15 minutes ago, from a question asked by a certain member on here. I am self diagnosing myself with this because it's exactly what happens.
This has been happening to me since I was about 15 years old. It started off as just a simple fantasy..I remember realizing that I could just fantasize about different things, different lives as if I had a different life in a different body, in my bed at night. I do this every night before I go to sleep, sometimes when I wake up, if I don't have to do anything.
I find it odd. I know it's not real but it's almost like a lousy simulation. I can see it for myself but faintly. I can feel it around me, hear the people I'm with in my day dream around me and a lot of it becomes real, so long as the people I know aren't around, call my name, see myself in a photo or a picture or even when people get me to do daily activities with them. I would rather live in my own fantasy than to ever live in a place as myself where I am nothing to no one, except the times when THEY need help.
Being in them makes me feel incredibly happy because I get to be who I want to be and no one else can change that. In my fantasies, I'm noticed, people talk to me and people want me around as a friend. Sometimes I get to have super powers and save the world, become a hero or sometimes I get to just be myself but also, not myself.
I think this is the root all my problems. Why It's so difficult to go out in the daily world and face myself as myself and nothing else. I constantly ignore my body, I constantly ignore my image and I just believe that friends and family don't like me because well, I don't like myself. I know I need to change, I just don't know how. Hopefully there is a cure for this.
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