I've been doing this since I was around eight or nine years old. I'm sixteen now. I think it started because I was lonely in Primary School as I was bullied badly. It was a way for me to escape the harsh world and be this popular, powerful archeologist with magical powers (ikr XD). Currently, I daydream about being a famous muscian/film writer with lots of money, friends and family- things I'd like and careers I'd be interested in. What I find weird is that, though I create characters (such as my alternate self), I put real celebrities and characters from other works in my daydreams and it's like I'm involved in their life! Does anyone else experience this? It makes me feel guilty sometimes because I create a different life for a celeb in my head and my character is somehow involved in it and I don't want to stop. It's like a drug. As I pace and jump around a lot when I daydream and even talk to myself sometimes, I can feel really paranoid that people are watching at me and laughing and my social skills have messed up badly. I also feel sad or angry sometimes when I make a sad situation up. I've told my psychologist, who has diagnosed me with autism (I think its not though, just bad social anxiety and daydreaming as a seperate thing). I've also told close friends and my parents but they really don't understand. Like once I told my parents and they were like 'what?' and wouldn't let me explain properly and seemed to forget the next day :/. Just posting my experience so I can communicate with people who actually understand this condition.
sami16 sami16
16-17, F
3 Responses Mar 15, 2016

You can definitely communicate with me! I have the exact same problem. Read my experience!

Will do :)

I also pace and jump around and talk to myself/imitate the daydream characters' facial expressions, and get really paranoid that someone will see me. I've paced around so much that the floorboards of my room creak like crazy now so its really obvious when I'm pacing because people can hear the floorboards creaking. This makes me more paranoid but I still can't stop! And when I'm in the middle of a daydream I don't notice anyway.

Sorry that the people you tell don't understand. MDD isn't an officially recognised disorder so it's unlikely that they will. At least you can speak to people here :)

Thank you for your reply it means at lot! Good to know I have people to talk to :)

I know exactly how you feel. I put celebrities in my daydreams also (in them im dating a celebrity) and its hard to stop for me to. Its like driving me crazy because when I see the celeb im "dating" out with a girl or rumored to have a gf I feel crush because it doesn't mold with my daydreams. I get really depressed, have suicidal thoughts, get anxiety, etc. I'm only 15 to! I'm taking meds for depression and anxiety right now. I just wanted to let you know your not the only one who gets celebs involved with your daydreams, lots of people with MD do.

Thanks for your reply! It's comforting to know I'm not the only one. Hang in there also :)

Thanks you to! It's nice to have other people know what we are going through and have our backs with stuff and not think we are crazy

Also, if you want to look at my story you can. I know it just helps me personally read about other people stories and stuff like that so check it out if you want to.

Will do. Thanks!

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