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The Defeated Monster

I suffered from night terrors for a long time, longer than normal. I remember the fear of sleep and the embarassment of waking up screaming. I remember 'waking up' and seeing the face of a loved one standing or sitting over me. Suddenly, the smiles would turn to snarls and their face would turn into some hideous thing. I remember looking over to my dresser and seeing demons huddled around a carcass and then turning to me with bits of gore hanging from their face. But suddenly I had an idea.

I was sleeping in a bunk bed at the time, and one of my more re-occuring night terrors included a horrible disfigured face rising from the darkness underneath my bed. As he rose I gulped down my fear and told him that he was early and needed to wait a little longer. Surprisingly, he politely apologized and went away. However, he came back every night, and every night I told him the same thing. But every night he became a little less scary and a little less disfigured. Until he stopped coming altogether.

No matter how terrible it was, I know it's okay now. I still have them sometimes, although the worst I've had in a very long time is the occasional fleeting shadow at my door frame. I like to think that it's my monster waiting for a turn that will never come again.

CalesVoger CalesVoger 16-17, M 5 Responses Nov 27, 2009

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Its very brave of you to fAce your fear like that

Shadows can either be a part of us, or separate. These are spirits that are considered as allies, enemies, or you. You must have been hurt very badly growing up. What came to me was that the Shadow was there to protect you, from the person who hurt you. This is why the shadow stays at the door. You can speak to the shadow they hear you and will respond, if you want to. <br />
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just my 2 cents

Shadows can either be a part of us, or separate. These are spirits that are considered as allies, enemies, or you. You must have been hurt very badly growing up. What came to me was that the Shadow was there to protect you, from the person who hurt you. This is why the shadow stays at the door. You can speak to the shadow they hear you and will respond, if you want to. <br />
<br />
just my 2 cents

Shadows can either be a part of us, or separate. These are spirits that are considered as allies, enemies, or you. You must have been hurt very badly growing up. What came to me was that the Shadow was there to protect you, from the person who hurt you. This is why the shadow stays at the door. You can speak to the shadow they hear you and will respond, if you want to. <br />
<br />
just my 2 cents

You are very strong, and it's amazing how you conquered your fear.<br />
Thank you for sharing.