I have been depressed for almost as long as I remember. I guess it started in my early teens and it just never went away. I have been on antidepressants ever since. I hate mornings and I hate the rest of the day every day. I feel like I hate everything all the time. I used to feel sad all the time but now I just loathe my own existence. I don’t know if this is normal or if I am losing my sanity. I certainly question it often enough lately. It seems that I’ve been depressed so long that I can’t cry any more. I didn’t cry at my mother or my father’s funeral. It’s like I’m desensitized. I wish I could feel something. Anything. I wonder if I will always be this way.