Help, Im Married To A Man
I love women, I know you have heard this many times before. So, now what? I am not sure. I am old enough to know better, but in a situation that does not welcome honesty. I have children, I am on my second marriage, I am unhappy and know why. I have always been the outcast and fear of being even more rejected hurts. It was not my choice to be raised in the family I had, judged, ignored and shunned by others. However the desire to be accepted has hung around forever. I wanted to be one of the normal people, whatever that means. At 34, I am realizing, no one is normal, were all struggling to make it and life is short.... With that being told, how much time do I spend living this life of lies? I am confused, a people pleaser and unsatisfied. I sound depressed, right> Well, I am not. I have beautiful children, a great husband, a adorable home, a career and wonderful understanding friends. I would appear to have it together. However, inside Im secretly struggling with my sexuality. I know I would rather be with a woman, but I can not bear the thought of hurting my family. Seems awfuly selfish..Although , I have never put my happiness first and it would be nice to feel complete...Arrgghhhh, life can seem so complicated..