Never Feel Anything
I've suppressed my feelings since I was a little kid because I saw how people would let their feelings run their lives and I didn't want that to happen. I started just ignoring the bad ones like sadness and some pain. However, as time went on I started to add other emotions that were, and are still, confusing to me. But now it seems that I suppress everything to the point that I don't even feel happiness anymore. It feels like I'm dead inside with some occasional rage filling me inside. I don't trust people enough to let them help or get close to me and now it seems that it's fueling my depression past the breaking point.