Resentment

This is not right but I am resentful of this lady that I have been working with on a project. She has a beautiful house, 2.5 kids, she doesn't have an outside job and her husband is very good looking and provides well for his family. She has a tiny waist and no one would ever think she had children. (but she has very short legs!) Why I resent her I don't know.

Thinking about it, I should have had that house. (OMG HOW STUPID THIS SOUNDS!) I worked hard on a relationship for 18 years and what I ended up with was a payoff and nothing else.  I lost my kids. My 2.5 died before they were born. I never wanted to be a housewife, but I did want to have a family that I could be there for. My ex is a great guy and he would have provided for us if our children survived but he was an *** when he was young so who knows.

She is a caring and kind person and so am I so that should mean something, right?

 

azurebites azurebites
51-55, F
Nov 15, 2009