I can almost say that I've survived it. A few more days so I've set this as a goal of mine.
This year, 2008, was horrible on many levels. One of the worst.
I started off in a job that I absolutely hated making a fraction of what I made at my good job that I lost in the fall of 2007. But I needed income so I did it. I compromised my principles on that job in the name of trying to make ends meet.
In February I quit that job because I just could not go on there one more day. I just stopped showing up. I've never done that...not given notice.
In March I started temping in a new industry that I had almost no knowledge of, needing a career change due to a faltering economy.
In April, I managed to turn that temp job into a permanent job that I am still at and do enjoy but still making 1/3 of what I used to make.
In May, my then partner totalled my car and acted as if it were no big deal.
In June, I found out that my then partner had stopped paying the mortgage all together, even though I'd cashed out 401Ks to pay my half and given him my portion of the mortgages and bills.
In July, all my credit cards went to collections because I stopped paying them trying to afford gas to get to work and get caught up on the mortgages.
In August, I turned 42 and decided that my then partner wasn't much of partner. I told him to get out of my house and my life.
In September, my now ex moved out leaving me with all bills that I could not afford on my salary.
In October, I walked away from the house since I was told that they were going to foreclose on it and moved into a small apartment.
In November, my life seemed to stabilize somewhat. I had a place to live and was out of a toxic relationship.
In December, I realised just how alone I am here with no real friends and no family close by and spent a day just hiding from life buried under the covers.
Now as I get ready to close out December and 2008 overall, it was a pretty ****** year. One that I hope to never see another one like again.
My hope for 2009 is to be happy, find some sort of stability in my life, declare bankruptcy and begin rebuilding my life from the ashes and cinders that it's become.