My ex and I had dated on and off since high school (10 years). We dated this past time for two years and decided to move in together. He had a 3 year old daughter that I welcomed with open arms. Not long after, he proposed in a surprising and romantic way on my 27th birthday. It was amazing. Shortly after we set the wedding date for the following year and started making plans. I was so happy. Two months before the wedding, everything was paid for and in order. One day, out of the blue, we had a petty fight over dinner plans and he broke it to me. He no longer wanted to marry me. I was speechless. He proceeded to tell me that we had nothing in common and he wasn't in love with me. I was crushed. He promptly moved out of my house the next day and never looked back. Maybe it was cold feet, maybe it was someone else. I really don't know and I have learned it doesn't matter now.
It has been a truly horrific and trying experience. I was not only completely humiliated, but absolutely heart broken. I was the one who had to cancel the wedding and notify everyone. He refused to be involved and said that it was too hard for him to deal with it all. Too hard for him?! For the first month, I barely ate or slept. I cried constantly and thought my life was over.
It has been over two months now, and I am starting to feel better about it all. I have accepted the situation and I am learning to realize that things will get better. I know it will take a long time to truly get over the situation, but I am determined to be a better person from this unsightly situation. The wedding day is very soon, and I am struggling on how to deal with the big day.