Lost

I met this girl while going to college, at first I didn't give her a second thought but we started to chill, went on a few dates. This went on for a few months, and things where going good, soon I started to get real feelings for her. I don't what happen, I think I might have come on too strong or something, but she started to pull away  i would ask her to chill and there would be excuse after excuse. So I finally ask what was going on and she told me that she had no feelings for me, I kind of knew the answer by now but I asked anyways. So I tried the friend thing but I could not do it, If i just got shot down in the first place it would have not been that bad but now it was too much. Well I didn't take it so well, started to pick arguments With her, tried to find ways to annoy her and just being an over all *******. At the same time this was happening, her mother had passed away, so will she was dealing with that, I was trying to mess with her. Every time I would try to make things right, it just made things worst and I would just get upset and I just go back to ******* with her . So of course she wants nothing to do with me, and I have to respect her wishes and have no contact with her. The thing is I have this horrible rejecting feeling added to this horrible feeling about what I have done, I cant sleep and I walk around with this horrible empty feeling in my chest. I don't where to go from here, I seem to disconnected from ever thing, I feel like so horrible for how things went down and I can't seem to get over it, but I know I have too.


P.s sorry for horrible grammer.
heartless2012 heartless2012
22-25
May 8, 2012