About 2 months ago me and my long term boyfriend broke up. I know it was for the best (he didn't treat me very well) But as many of you probably know, it's not easy to just get over someone, no matter what the circumstances. I haven't seen him since we split but tonight I am going clubbing with some friends and apparently he will be there. I am terrified, what if I freak out? Get emotional? Become a drunken mess. I am so sick of being scared of seeing him. Can anyone help? Should I blow tonight off and wait till I feel ready, or will I ever feel ready? I just don't know what to do or how to feel.