This Is a Big Goal.
I really hope I can make it through this. I guess I don't have it as bad as most girls here being I talk to and sometimes see my man daily (only because he is on the Carl Vinson and this ship's not going anywhere anytime soon). But not surviving this deployment had become a big fear of mine. Because I get to talk to him everyday, I get to watch him change, and this past week he starting acting strangely. I was very worried until I told him today I noticed the change and he starting crying saying he didn't want me to leave him and he never means to hurt me. Said the little things always get to him, and he would make a better effort to talk to me about these things so he can let them go and keep a smile on his face.
I do my best to make him feel more and more comfortable about talking to me about everything in his life. I'm just not sure he's used to the idea of having someone he could just TALK to.
Good luck....to me. And all the others who have this as a goal. WE CAN DO THIS. DON'T LET THE MILITARY DEFEAT YOU. HE WILL BE BACK.