Suicide Attempt, Self Harm, Ed

I think Ive pretty much been depressed since I was a 3yo. I've self harmed since then. It started with pulling hair out. When I was 14  I got anorexia...when I was 15 I had hit pretty much around 98 pounds. I gained weight but developed bulimia. From 16 I started getting really depressed. I was put on anti depressants and went to counselling but I wasnt ready for help. Finally after taking a bunch of pills i was put in a general hospital for a week. I then went to a specialised adolescent psych unit for a couple of weeks.  I went to the general hospital a few more times after that. my pscyh then applied for me to go to aspecial school for teens with mental illness but I didnt want to go.

All through this time I had been cutting severely and burning. I had 2nd and 3rd degree burns on my arms, had stitches several times was starving and purging, attempted suicide a couple of times and took so much time off school my dad had special meetings with the principals to talk about things and organise how I'd deal and how the school could help and stuff...

Finally I changed drs and he finally realised I had bipolar 1 which I told them all along. Im on proper meds now and I feel much better. Still get down but better than those other years of my life :)

becdance becdance
18-21, F
Mar 15, 2010