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I Survived Gang Rape

I also survived rape.  I was working in a nightclub and two Cuban men came in.  I was working as a hostess and waitress and we were expected to drink and dance with the customers.  The Cuban men bought me a drink and I left it sitting on their table. 

That is all I remember until I woke up in an empty house on a mattress on the floor in a room with people sitting around watching.  It was very fuzzy and I could feel nothing.  The next time a woke up, a young Cuban man was shaking me.  I was naked and my purse  was gone.  I still had my dress and shoes.  I was filthy and the young man took me into the bathroom and helped me bathe in cold water.  I put on my dress and shoes and he helped me out to his car.  I did not speak spanish and he did not speak english very well, but some how we got from Hollywood to Pasadena and my house. 

The first thing I did was take a hot shower for about a half  hour.  I callled a locksmith as a set of house keys were in my missing purse. Then I called my bank and canceled my checks and canceled my charge card.  I did not call the police because I knew the people watching me get raped were part of a gang and the only ones I would recognize were the two who came into the club.  If I placed charges against I don't think I would have lived to go  to court. 

I visited my clinic to be tested for VD.  Telling the doctor the story he said it was probably an animal tranquilizer  that they had slipped in my drink.

I know if anyone in the gang had said,"Wouldn't it be intresting if we killed her?".  I wouldn't be here now.  I believe God was watching over me that night.   

 I think I should add that this happened when I was 38 years old and I am now 73.  It was traumatic at the time it happened but I did everything i could not to experience anything like it again.  Over the years it has become less important.  I took responsiblity for my putting my self in the position in the first place.  I pray for the people who did this to me and that they never subjected another woman to the unpleasant experience. 

 

 

 

auntpat auntpat 70+ 14 Responses Jul 27, 2008

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You have a lot of backbone to forgive someone for doing that.

Good Luck.

shoot them boat people.round themall up there iland only 90 mi.

Dear MM, I hope you have handled your rage and desire for revenge, Those feelings do no harm to the men but keep you stuck in the situation. I am sure the men will pay for their crimes against us,
I can imagine how terrible it was to be awake when you were being rapped. At least I wasn't aware of what was being done to me. But I wondered what had been done when I woke up. The pain and the filth was a mystery to me. I knew what happened but could not remember any of it.
I said many for the men who raped me. I prayed that God would touch them and that they would never hurt another woman.
We are hear to love and help each other not harm. I will ask God to give you love and happiness to love and comfort you and let you know that you are his child and protect you.
Much Love,
Pat

Dear MM, I hope you have handled your rage and desire for revenge, Those feelings do no harm to the men but keep you stuck in the situation. I am sure the men will pay for their crimes against us,
I can imagine how terrible it was to be awake when you were being rapped. At least I wasn't aware of what was being done to me. But I wondered what had been done when I woke up. The pain and the filth was a mystery to me. I knew what happened but could not remember any of it.
I said many for the men who raped me. I prayed that God would touch them and that they would never hurt another woman.
We are hear to love and help each other not harm. I will ask God to give you love and happiness to love and comfort you and let you know that you are his child and protect you.
Much Love,
Pat

I admired you for being a strong woman..!!

my dear Design82, If there was no god you wouldn't be here, Your Mother and father can create a body for you but only God can give you life.
If he took away our freedom of choice we would have fewer upsets. But I"d rather he not do that.
You even have the freedom to not believe in him.He loves you anyway and so do I.
Aunt Pat

IF god was watching over you......................................................................................................you wouldn't have been raped (the crash wouldn't have happened, nor the earthquake......there wouldn't be wars, or cancer.................... IF there was a god was watching !!!)

Wow! You are amazing. Very strong, very wise. You're my hero....thank you for sharing this.

If you have an open mind, and seek help please email me at advanpropcons@aol.com<br />
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I have communicated with hundreds of survivors. I know the common issues they share. <br />
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I have my own ideas how they can find solace, how they can heal, how they gain control over their past. <br />
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I can tell you right now that most survivors who try to bury their past and just move on rarely succeed. Abuse creates anger. That anger can either be turned inwards where it turns to self-hate and leads to depression, self-punishment, lonliness, and isolation. Or that anger can be directed outwards where survivors hurt those they love, their lovers, their pets, their children, their employers. Directed outwards that anger can turn survivors into sociopathic criminals. <br />
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The anger of survivors is like a lake of magma below a volcano. Survivors who bottle-up their emotions, and repress them fnd they fester beneath the surface and build up pressure till their anger erupts like a volcano. It takes a lot of mental energy to repress that anger and to keep it bottled-up where it eats away the survivor from the inside out. <br />
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If you allow me, I can help you release your anger directing it and channeling it outward without hurting anyone, and at the same time help you forgive your perp.

Respect, survivor!

Thank you for sharing something so tramatic. You are a strong lady with a powerful message.

You are incredibly strong, and I desperately wish to be like you. Thank you for inspiring me. You are a beautiful person.

Thank you femme, I believe in the garbage truck theory. I do not let others dump their garbage on me and cause me to carry that garbage to others. In stead I accept that which is loving and kind so that is what I have to share with others. Father and Mother God bless me often and I receive micacles of love and protection daily. With your attitude I am sure you do to. I am sending you loved and a big hug. Aunt Pat

I'm glad that you you didn't let that horrible experience turn you bitter; hatred rots people from the inside out once they let it take root. Honestly, I don't know if I could ever bring myself to pray for people who had wronged me so greatly. You are truly a living testament to the virtue of forgiveness and I sincerely hope that God keeps on watching over you and that He lays a hand of protection upon you.