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I Take a Lot of Medication

I Used to Just Think I Was Addicted, But I Am Bipolar and Borderline.

By: ilovemyweed
Written on October 1st, 2007
I take Wellbutrin, Adderall, Seroquel, Xanax, Cymbalta, Topamax and then Lopressor for my Blood Pressure twice per day.

I still hate going around most people the majority of the time.  I do have my days when all I want to do is go out and shop/ steal/ and be impulsive to a dangerous level. 

I can be so sad, and then I can be fine, but still want everyone to leave me totally alone and in a dark dark room with only the tv. 
I feel like such an asshat selfish loser.  Only able to survive by locking everyone out of my life most of the time.
By: ilovemyweed
Age: 26-30 , Female
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  • Freestanding
    Freestanding

    I too take a bucket full of meds, nothing seems to hit the mark. They keep changing them all the time in search of the right "cocktail" Just when my body gets use to them, their they go and change them, then I have weeks a crappy side effects. It is a never ending cycle. I hate it!!!

    Oct 3, 2007
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  • lily7
    lily7

    Please don't think of yourself as a loser. It's not your fault that you suffer from a mental illness, it's like having a heart condition or any other disease. Most people don't think of it that way but it really is. I empathyze with both of you guys. Even though I am not bipolar I suffer from depression and from PMDD once a month. I get very irritable and I just want to get away from everyone so that people don't have to deal with my mood swings during that time period. I'm also on welbutrin and some pain meds and I'm thinking of getting something for restless leg cause it's been driving me crazy lately. Is seroquel for that I think?

    Oct 2, 2007
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