Throwing Simplicity and Serenity Out the Window

I love much that I buy them and cover them with lists upon lists of things I have to do: see the doctor, the dentist, the for this, save for that; pay so-and-so; do x then y then's never ending and it really irritates me.

I like things simple, but I'm really really bad about having things that way.

A good portion of the problem is that I take on projects which, theoretically, I could figure out how to do but don't necessarily have expertise in. For example, this last week I got corralled into acting as my brothers wedding photographer. Yikes. Talk about baptism by fire. I got some decent pictures, but I was really lucky I didn't utterly flub the entire thing.

Then there's work. I've accepted three projects which I theoretically know how to do, but which I've never actually done. One is the creation of something of a technical manual (a handbook for my position where I work), another is a "welcome" manual for new hires, and the last project is a "welcome" overview video of what we do where I work. Yeeeeaaah. I theoretically know how to create a manual. It involves some scanning, some page layout, some image editing, some copy writing, some printing, getting feedback, etc., but I've never actually pulled all those things together in one project. I've done bits and pieces of those sorts of activities for other projects. The video will be a real challenge. I know my way around a camcorder, and I know how to write scripts (an "industrial" shouldn't be too hard), but I've never done any editing or post production work with video; so that'll be a challenge.

Any one of those projects would be intimidating enough, a big enough undertaking, without having accepted the other two. And all three of those projects would be plenty--if my life outside of work had nothing going on in it. But such is not the case.

I accepted those projects months ago.

I accepted the task of creating a website for my sister a year ago. I still haven't finished the website.

Then there's the writing that I want to do. And the reading. And the socializing with friends. And the sleeping and eating and meeting the needs I have as a human being.

I like things simple, but I'm really bad about getting them to that point, and keeping them that way.

Ideally, I'll get to the point that I finish these projects and refuse to take on any more. I already informed my sister that any more web work in the future will be of a much lesser degree. After I finish the projects for work, I won't accept any more. Nor will I suggest any ideas that might get spun right back at me ("sure, that sounds great. Get to it!"). Basically I'm going to consciously simplify. I'm going to get much better about saying no.

I already expressed to anyone who'd listen that my brother's wedding is probably both my first and last time as a wedding photographer.

Just doing the things I want to do; the projects that I establish for myself would keep me plenty busy.

I suppose I do it because I like being needed, being helpful/useful. I like feeling like I have something to offer. But, being so helpful to others is reducing to nil the time I have to forward my own aspirations--not a good situation.
liferiot liferiot
26-30, M
Jun 28, 2007