My Vicodin Story

 I am a recovering addict, I used still use Vicodin, Lortab, Norco, Morphine and so on to get high. It all started when I had some surgery, I had gotten a prescription for some vicodin. I was in alot of pain, but never even thought to take the pain med, my drug of choice was tramadol. It wasn't even concidered my "DOC" it was just the medicine that helped the most. Taking the vicodin that day was a huge mistake, even though I only took it because I hurt really bad, that day, started me on the path to addiction. Not only did it help take the edge off the pain, but it gave me this feeling of "all is well with the world".  This went on for years and years, I went into detox last year so 10 or 11 years I was addicted, heavily.  So much so that I doctor shopped and ER hopped. In fact it has been recent that I found a wonderful doctor, who still controls my pain factor, but is very careful with me, he is one of the few who doesn't believe once an addict always an addict.  Anyways I use to go to the ER's almost constantly, there was one ER in specific that knew me by first name, they knew I has an addiction, but they gave me the pills anyways. Hey as long as they were giving I was recieving.

 

  I still take lortabs but both my doc and I are careful, I have to check in with him every couple of days with bottle in hand to prove I have not been abusing the drugs. He said I will not have to do this forever though....... 

 

  I went into detox last year, when I got tired of freaking out every time I would run out. That was the scariest part of drug addiction, in my opinion is running out. I did run out, got very sick almost psychosis of sorts, very scary, never again. Thats my story in a nutshell.

missmellee missmellee
36-40
1 Response Feb 27, 2009

Youre right, the scariest part is running out. How do you deal day to day now? Did you ever have panic attacks when you knew you were running low? The reason I ask is because (for me) "one pill is too many and a few pills are not enough." (if that makes sense)<br />
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I hope my questions are not too forward. :)<br />
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-Rachelle