Thanks, But No Thanks.

Every night in my prayers i thank God for what i have. My family, friends, my (messed up) mind, possessions..etc, ETC!
But then why do i always want to throw it away? Just like three nights or something ago i came extremely close to taking an overdose, i mean i literally was just about to do it when i suddenly changed my mind.
Sounds sort of stupid when I put it like that, aha, but it's the truth. I just sort of left the needle down and was like, 'naw'.
Was that yet another gift from God?
The gift of life?
Don't get me wrong, I still think about it. But I wouldn't be able to type this if i had done it. And i had an awesome day today with my friends.
mmelissa mmelissa
18-21, F
1 Response Jul 12, 2010

Maybe you could try not looking at what is good or bad....try focusing on what "is" and "isnt"....Sadness and happiness are essentials in life. Niether feeling is right or wrong. They just "are".