I Don't Know What To Expect.........

I don't know where to begin, about a month ago I found out that I was pregnant. I was diagnosed with bipolar when I was 25 years old. And know how I was before medication was introduced to me. I have basically lived with this disease and with medications everything has seemed to be clearer and better. I always feared getting pregnant, because I didn't want to get off my medication.  I don't regret getting pregnant, but I'm scared out of my mind.  This is my first pregnancy, also.

I have been faithfully taking my medication and when I thought I may be pregnant, I quit taking my medication. When I found out that I was pregnant, I quit smoking; right away. Later, a few of my girlfriends tell me that I shouldn't of quit so fast. Because of different factors. I haven't smoked a cigarette, haven't had my medication, and I don't know how to cope.

I have noticed a difference in myself since I'm not on my medication. I know hormones are raging, since I'm pregnant; but I don't like seeing my old ways come to the surface. My boyfriend doesn't understand my moodiness and I don't know how to explain it to him. As I see some of my old ways resurface, it completely scares me. I don't know how to control my temper, with out my medication. When I'm on my medication, I'm mellow and always think before I speak. And now, I struggle with that. If anyone has any suggestions or anything that could help me. I'm willing to listen. One of my friends that is also a mother of 3 kids and bipolar, suggested I try to get back on a low dose of my medication. I don't want to do anything that will harm me, the baby or give me chances of it in the future.

I'm just trying to survive and taking things one day at a time.  Look forward to any advice, suggestions and anything that is helpful.  Thanks, ahead

UNCluv UNCluv
31-35, F
2 Responses Dec 1, 2012

You may be able to take Lamictal while pregnant and if you can tolerate some of the antidepressants out there, some of them are safe. I took Paxil while pregnant with both of my kids and they are fine. I did have severe post-partum. The second time we were prepared and the effects wasn't too bad. Your OB and your psych. should talk to each other and come up with something that will work. It's important for you to be emotionally stable while pregnant. Your emotions affect your child as much as what you put in your body. Good luck.

I have bipolar disorder also and so does my daughter - well both of my daughters actually. But the relevant point is my one daughter has been pregnant three times now. She has been on one bipolar medication or another since she was fourteen. I used to feel guilty medicating her and once she convinced me to let her stop for awhile at that time she was taking Depakote among other things and it was messing up her digestion. So I let her quit. She ran away that weekend and all of the risk taking behavior convinced me we were correct to medicate her all along.

Anyway, she made it through high school then moved in with her boyfriend (who is now her husband) and got pregnant fairly quickly. She went off her meds and with her first pregnancy she had a fairly easy time during the pregnancy. But after she had the baby she had such bad post partum she had to be hospitalized. The next two pregnancies have been harder and still she takes no meds. I agree this is for the best since she takes Topomax (off diagnosis med but it works for her and she has migraines as well). She is about to have her third baby and we are all preparing for her to go right back on her meds as soon as she gives birth. She is starting to pump breast milk beforehand so she can start the meds as this is the safest course. I had bad post partum with psychosis and it got worse with each pregnancy.

I am not sure this is helpful info but know you are not alone. The father of your baby needs to educate himself so he can help you during this pregnancy and after. If he is not reliable recruit a close friend or family member to help you monitor your behavior. Good luck, the best news I have for you is that for my daughter her first pregnancy actually evened out her moods. You just never know. Fight the good fight - with support you can do this.

Thanks very much for your advice.