I Am So Confused!! I Want To Cheat On My Husband
I have been married for 21 years, my husband is very mentally and emotionally abusive, we have gone to counceling numerous times, he always says he will change for me and our girls, an he does but it only lasts about a month. He has cheated on me, he lies all the time, he is so manipulative, I have been faithful for our entire marriage. We are fighting agian now, about every 6 months we go thru this, but I am so tired of it, our daughters have even told me to leave him, were all afraid of him and his temper, hes never physically hit us, but emotionally is just awful!! well a friend of ours just came back into our lives, we havent seen him for about 10 years, I have always been attracted to him, last week he told me how he feels about me, when I think of him I smile alot, get the butterflies and everything. I do not want another relationship what so ever, my marriage has been very very rough, so the thought of a relationship with this other man isnt even a question, I do however want to have an affair with him. I have never ever cheated on my husband, I've been a faithful devoted wife and mother, my entire world has revolved around my family, our girls are 20 and 15. I cant stop thinking of this other man, and I am not the cheating type, when my husbamd cheated on me 4 years ago it just killed me, and I wouldnt wish that pain on anyone. I am just so tired of the abuse and the screaming at me all the time, and the fighting, I just dont know what to do. I love my husband, but I think I'm at the point where I just dont care anymore.