I Like Watching Myself Die

I constantly have fantasies of myself dying. And the same person is always there. Usually i get shot, or an arrow gets shot at me. I'm always at cross country practice when I am dying for some reason. Maby bc it's easy to get by yourself when running. Especially when we run in the woods on trails. You're always alone. I never know the person that kills me. But I do know the person that is always there while I'm dying. Like I want him to see me die. Watching myself die gives me a rush of mixed emotions. And I always wish that someone will kill me before I do.
Emofox Emofox
18-21, T
May 14, 2012