Well, Then, How Should I Feel?

I just told one of my friends how I feel. She's the only person that I would tell about the depression, social anxiety, feelings of being a failure, suicide planning. Do you know what her response was? "Girl, dont feel like that." as if I chose to feel like this. As if I want to consider myself a failure. Everywhere I go, I think "failure, failure, failure." I don't want these thoughts to go through my head, hell, if I could stop them I would. But I can't. When she told me not to feel like that, I immediately thought " I won't, for long." 
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22-25, F
Dec 1, 2012