I Long For Death

Death is one of the few things in this world that is truly final you cant over turn it and you cant escape it. Maybe its the only thing in this world that is final... I long for my death, as the days go by as the stress piles up I hope for a heart attack or getting hit by a bus, car, train whatever. Maybe if I'm lucky while I sleep at night some dude will break into my place and cut my throat for a little change.

I got this way just cause I realise that this world has nothing left to offer me. I have no friends I have no family I have no one that cares for me... Whats most painful is that it didnt always start out like that. I can remember my family a little bit but not much, I can remember a few things about Thanksgiving dinner or a Christmas, I can remember my dad going to my grandfathers to watch the football game and even though I can remember these events I cant remember many details about them its all just kind of foggy.

I lost everything that is important to me and though this world has a lot to offer I'm not interested in any of that stuff. What would be best for me is to just turn off to just shut down and sleep a good sleep.
bushi132001 bushi132001
26-30, M
1 Response Dec 2, 2012

No way man!! You're depressed. It's okay to be depressed (I've been there), but you don't really long for death, sometimes it just feels like you do...keep your chin up!

Thanks, I do try but life has just got me beat...