What Would Happen?
I think alot about death, but not about myself dieing. I wonder what would it would be like to lose someone very close to me and how I would react. There was one day when I was following my sister into town and I thought about her having a wreck right in front of me and wondered how I would feel. Would I be to shocked and over come by grief to help her or would I bounce back and gather myelf enough to save her? I often find myself day dreaming about possible senarios in which people would be hurt and if it happened in front of me would I just stand there stunned at the awful sight or would I be able to stomach offering my help to something I had never before witnessed. Right after I had my baby I was always worried about SIDS. I would make myself sick worrying about her breathing. She slept in her bassinet next to my bed and I would sleep with my hand on her back so I could feel her breathing. I would wonder if by chance I were to walk in and she wasn't breathing if I would just collapse on the floor with her in my arms. Completely useless and unable think straight enough to get help. Or would I be able to revive her myself or get her help quick enough. I always made sure my phone was charged for that very reason. I have these wonderings quite often. Not once has my own life become victim to them. I'm derranged!