Determening Death

I am confused as to why I always think about death.... the many ways I can die, terminal, car crash, again.....downding, murdered being lost with no food in the wild... I know it sounds crazy but I think about the many ways I can die... at leaste 5 times a day, and the other crazy part is I have such anxiety  and fear of dieing. Someone please shed some light on why I am going through this....
dreamergirl dreamergirl
22-25, F
2 Responses Jan 12, 2007

You have these thoughts because while you are (clearly) uncertain about what death means, or will be like, a part of you is eager to explore the idea. Perhaps you could try meditating on the death experience, or reading literature from people who either claim to have experienced dying, or older literature from cultures who spent a lot of time themselves questioning what dying was all about. I suggest a copy of the Bardo Thodol, but do some research. It doesn't make you strange, it makes you attentive to your spiritual desires.

I often have thoughts like this too. I also have horrible thoughts of something bad happening to the people that I love and it scares the crap out of me...sometimes bringing me to tears. I have no idea what causes this but if you find out... please let me know.