What's wrong with me? Why do I think about my life so wrong.
Why do I deep cornered into life. I feel like I'm forced to go to school forced to learn forced to get a job and make money, and what's all that for? All that's gonna happen, is ******* death. You may have prettier hair and cooler clothes but I bet our tombstones will be the exact color of my thoughts, grey. Both of ours. We'll be the same when we rot beneath the ground while everyone else carries on. so yeah, I feel like everything I do, every breath I breath is useless and it shouldn't even be happening.
catherineeac catherineeac
16-17, F
3 Responses Aug 22, 2014

choose life child, its wonderful, and jesus say if you believe in him you will not die, but have life everlasting, life is worth living.13-15“No one has ever gone up into the presence of God except the One who came down from that Presence, the Son of Man. In the same way that Moses lifted the serpent in the desert so people could have something to see and then believe, it is necessary for the Son of Man to be lifted up—and everyone who looks up to him, trusting and expectant, will gain a real life, eternal life.16-18“This is how much God loved the world: He gave his Son, his one and only Son. And this is why: so that no one need be destroyed; by believing in him, anyone can have a whole and lasting life. God didn’t go to all the trouble of sending his Son merely to point an accusing finger, telling the world how bad it was. He came to help, to put the world right again. Anyone who trusts in him is acquitted; anyone who refuses to trust him has long since been under the death sentence without knowing it. And why? Because of that person’s failure to believe in the one-of-a-kind Son of God when introduced to him.19-21“This is the crisis we’re in: God-light streamed into the world, but men and women everywhere ran for the darkness. They went for the darkness because they were not really interested in pleasing God. Everyone who makes a practice of doing evil, addicted to denial and illusion, hates God-light and won’t come near it, fearing a painful exposure. But anyone working and living in truth and reality welcomes God-light so the work can be seen for the God-work it is.”

I agree 100% that's why you need to follow your heart and do what feels right to you. You don't have to be a prisoner. You don't have to listen to society. It's a gift to have the insight that you do. You can use it to make this world a better place. The best way to do that is to do what makes you happy and not worry about what others say. Society does things wrong and meaningless most of the time but you don't have to so the same. Forge your own path which will lead others to forge their own. <3

It is healthy, natural and necessary to think about death as it is the other side of the same coin. It is part of discovering the meaning in your life. Keep writing/journaling.