I Think About Having An Affair
I am a 34 year old house wife with a 7 year old son and a 2 year old daughter. Recently my husband has been out of work and refuses to let me have a full time job, he wants me to stay home. But when you have no food no extra money to go anywhere with your kids you start getting angry and it is with the husband. I don't think he is taking care of us like he is suppose to. I always dream about hooking up with someone who is successful, I am not a gold digger I just want to be taken care of and have money to do fun things.
My husband constantly gropes at me and wants me to do sexual stuff that I don't want to do but I don't want to do it with him because he has done me wrong so many times, why should I give him the satisfaction, I don't know if I am falling out of love with him because he has let me down so many times or if my personality is changing. I love my husband but I am bored, some women would love to have my husband, he constantly tells me how beautiful I am and wants to have sex 5 times a day, but he is also very jealous, he does not like me going places. I am a social person and I feel like for the past 5 years I have lost my self. I get depressed I want to dress up and be around people, have conversations, I want to be sexy. I am a 5'7 135 pounds with long brown hair and I used to love looking good, now all I do is sit at home with kids wearing sweats with no makeup, I could get all dressed up but what for, my kids??? Money is route of all evil!!! It controls my life!!
This is why I fantasize about affairs, I think if my husband would make enough money for me to go out and do stuff I wouldn't think about it.
I just want my sexy back!!!
I will be one of those 40 year olds that when the kids are grown I will get my self back and I will go wild and probably end up divorced!!!!