I Know I Am SelfishI have thought about this long before I could admit to myself that our marriage is not getting any better. I have tried total commitment. I denied myself of the glory of what women should have under the blessings of marriage. But I just can't be happy with a man i don't have affection with. I am so selfish. You can hate me. You may cuzz me. But I just can't make myself love you.
I thought about having an affair, and I am seeing a man who is doing wonders to me. I thought about him as a friend. But that's all there is to say about him.
I feel sorry for your parents and siblings. I feel sorry for us. After all what we had been and after all the kindness you showed. The goodness and the carings. But I am doing everything what is expected of me. JUST don't pretend neither expect that there will come a time that I would turn and say I love you.
ladyryan 41-45, F 32 Responses 13 Sep 27, 2011