Sick Of Pain

i have bad knees 'heart high blood pressure bad back depressed lonely and fat i'm just tried of trying to lose weight i'm 56 and what do i have to live for i was born all messed up married for 28 yrs he died leaving me nothing but . bills and a house that needs so much work  that i will never be able to repair so why don't i just end it all no one would miss me.i keep thinking that god has a plan for my life. but i can't see it. i have no friend who really love me and the ones i have i think they enjoy seeing me suffer. i'm tired.cant sleep have so much on my mind what am i going to do only god knows.
upallnight23 upallnight23
56-60
May 15, 2012