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I'm a Failure and I Want to Commit Suicide

Every time I get into my car I wish to get into an accident and die.  I am 19 years old and am a virgin.  I will never get laid or have a girlfriend because I am an incompetant **** who can't do anything right.  I've only had one girlfriend in my life and that was only because she came onto me because she wanted a boyfriend and didn't care who it was.  It lasted one month.

 I was one of the biggest losers in my High School and was picked on and bullied every day.  Girls would laugh at me in the halls.  I am short, ugly, have a cartoonish face, a bulbous chin, bad skin, asymmetrical eyes, and facial hair that will not grow in correctly.   I have very few friends and all I do with them is smoke weed and drink alcohol.  I have no skills, abilities, or talents.  I am worthless.  I have nothing to be proud of in my life and I never will.  I want to just die, it would be preferable to living my whole life hating myself and wishing for death and pretending to be optimistic to get by.  Deep down I know that I am a failure and am destined to die alone and miserable. 

I **** up everything I do.  I am horrible with directions, I can't pass High School math, can't win at any video games that my friends play, can't get a girlfriend, can't make friends, can't get good grades in school, can't fight, and can't ever feel good about myself.  I'm pathetic, I am overwhelmed with rage and grief whenever I see my reflection because I can't stand who I am.  I am a worthless **** and I cannot emphasize enough how much I hate myself.

If anyone has any tips on how to commit suicide easily or painlessly I'd like to know because I think it's what I have to do.

And no- being upbeat or pseudo-optimistic doesn't work.  I've tried it.  And here I am still hating myself and wanting to die.  I will never get a girl to like me.  I don't know what the **** they want me to say or do to make them like me.  I can't communicate with other people because I don't understand what they want.  I just know that I'm weird and am absolutely pathetic.  Being unable to function as a normal man isn't acceptable to me.  My plethora of deficiencies is too much to bear.
Alejandro Alejandro 18-21, M 414 Responses Dec 28, 2007

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hey guys, i'm very upset with everything
ive been always somehow depressed, but this year im thinking on suicide, i was expelled from university, my girlfried leave me, i dont have a job, i smoke and drink a lot... even my sisters and dad call me a failure/trash, im broken on sleep and i just can't take this anymore, the only reason i did not kill myself yet is because of my mom, she's kind to me, i love her and i dont want to see her sad, i have some good friends but i feel lonely, i can't trust anyone, i cant wait to die, life's such a *****

Im ready to go.Ive been abused all my life, Im alone and I ust cant imagine spending the rest of my life like this. My mom was right Im a piece of Sh*t and worth nothing and obviously no one cares because i have no one at all

Your too hard on your self. You can try Craigslist to get a girl and have sex with.use a condom. Perhaps if you stop smoking and drinking your skin will get better. Focus on getting a job.and then you can take care of yourself. Find hobbies and you could go places to meet a girl who share your hobbies

I am a few years ahead of you. I'm 28 and I have a relatively good job as a software developer at a large hospital group. I'm still going to school part time, but I'm failing. I can't deal with stress. I've managed to stop binge drinking (by my self), but I still binge eat. And even though I'm 6'3, 350lb is just gross.

I had a rough/bad/strange childhood and I though that things would get better with some success. Unfortunately they haven't, and that is what is really depressing. I have a tax refund of $2,700 coming in a couple of week. Even if I were to blow it all, I can't think of a single thing that would make my life better. I'm still puttering down the road, but I keep my 1911 loaded so if it ever gets to bad I can turn out them lights for good.

Hi

May I ask where you live?
If in the UK, me might be able to help each other out?

i wish i could be you. I envy your ability to be yourself in public (assuming you don't have social phobia). I can't make you see your own potential, but i see it. I'm stuck in a living hell right now. I used to be fearless and now I panic whenever I'm in public. Even when I try talk to a girl i start panicking. Imagine feeling like you were about to get bashed by a bully everytime you spoke to girl, even in private! If i could just be normal again like everyone else, i swear i won't take it fr granted. I live in a house of 4 young people who party and **** all the time and here's me, upstairs in my rooming raging in anger 18hrs per day because of my incapacitation. The thing is is that I got this disease from working too hard. I actually worked myself to death. Hopefully you felt a bit of relief reading my story and being grateful this isn't you. I'm not telling you to pretend to be happy or think positive but go do **** and take all your anger and depression with you as you do it. You have to bring that stuff to the top so it can be destroyed. By burying it deep down and hiding it from public you are protecting it

You say you're not good at anything, but wow, you are a wonderful writer. That's very evident. Vivid, intense. Great sentence cadence and construction choices. And you know what? A lot of writers aren't handsome, my god look at Steven King. He's not in any way at freakin all good looking but he has found a spot at the top of this world. And writers know all about rejection, all the things you're talking about. I know what you're talking about. I am constantly resisting impulses to hurt myself, to kill myself. I'm alone, just so alone and I also have failed so miserably in my life at literally every damn thing I have tried to do. I've painted myself into a corner, and it's hard going on, waking up, facing it. Every damn day. Now I don't know if this helps but if you tried writing about every tiny thing in your life and your reactions, and your observations, if you could just kind of climb out and start observing it instead of drowning in it, you might be able to condense that material into something well worth reading. You have obvious talent and you should try it out before destroying it. You can always destroy it later. That's what I always think when I pick up that gun. I can always do it later. Just sleep on it, write it down, make it a goal to get through one more day. To wake up just one more morning. Good luck dude. We are all pulling for you.

Are you dead yet

I also think about suicide too, a lot. I'm 23, still studying electronics engineering. I always get a failing grade but it doesnt stop me from studying. But I'm already taking up engineering for 7 years now and I always feel like im a disappoinment in my family because I'm still not going to graduate.

I am almost 40. I was a pretty strong guy. Always looking at the bright side, cup half full type. Had kid with a beautiful woman, but when she found out that she was pregnant she pack up **** and move back to California.....I never truly got over her taking my son away from me. I tired moving back to be together. But it didnt work out. He(my son) is almost 16. And I have only been able to see him 4 times. I failed. My marriage, I got a beautiful daughter. I failed my marrige. There have been other things between then and now. It was alway two things. I failed or something would happen. Just as I thought I was getting ahead......BAM......it was taken away. I have had cancer of the kidney.. got passed that I start pulling my life together 18 months past in that time, I was told I have diabetes, no cartilage in my left knee, which cause extreme pain now they think I have liver cancer. I have see truly wicked people get ahead in life. They break the rules nithibg happens to then. Look back on my life, I missed making memories with friends, college life, taking a trip to England. See different place. So I ended up as a 39 yr ago. Man being raped for child support so much I cant support myself. So am back at my parents...no girlfriend or any prospects. Why? I live with my parents. Kills the mood........so basically I have had the gun under my chin loaded and ready to go. But I stop, every time I think of my daughter.. best of wishes or vibes, love....whatever you accept.

I know what you mean. I fee what you feel. I'm feeling it right now... You're not alone in this.

I know ....not how you feel. But I sucks to feel alone

I sadly hear what you mean can relate to a good part of your story.you dont want positive talk just know u are not alone and id be your friend **** what people say negativitly about you andleave this post I know u dont believe it but u matter

I believe you are a diamond in the ruff. Forget those fools in highschool. Focus on your future. You will never see most of those classmates again. Work on being successful. That is the best revenge.

Hey dude I am 30 and still alone .I tried to be friends with some girls and I mean just friends and they all rejected my friendship.But hey I am still alive and well.See buddy it doesn't matter in today's world whether you have a girlfriend or not.What matters is the money you make.I myself am a civil and criminal court judge and you can imagine the money I make.Now on the way passing thirty, I hardly even feel the difference in life of not having a girlfriend or a wife, in fact seeing some of my engaged or married friends suffer in misery at the hands of their girlfriends and wives makes me thank God that he never ever put me where my friends are now.

I guess famliy screwed me up early and maybe well we get locked into bad habits but humans are a collective unconscious so no one has the right to dictate how it goes. I guss just take one day at a time and smell the flowers. Peace

I'm a girl I feel somewhat the same for myself except I'm no virgin, but can't handle relationships so I'm going through the whole spectrum of casual lately friends with benefits one night stands etc. I didn't commit suicide I started self harming this summer seems like it's addictive yesterday I was on the verge of starting crying front of my whole lab group instead I went to the toilet took my razor out my bag cut my arm 4-5 times and went out angry but not crying. Try it you won't want to die after that instead you will feel more alive then ever, just be careful you will need long sleeves and trousers careful don't all the time most people when they see that freak out and might say mean things (which is alright because they can't comprehend and don't give a ****) the worst is when they try to lecture you or pity you and might interfere. My advice don't die live and show this bastards you can make it even though you are a complete mess. I'm proud of being a mess I'm not a hypocrite or some self over evaluating **** like many people out there. Cope with it show your strength to yourself.

Ill be honest. Im 26 and through my whole life ive been depressed but some how manage to appear extroverted. I had a troubled up bringing which resulted in plenty of attempts in suicide starting at age 6. I was bullied up til sophmore highschool. Which stopped due to people not caring anymore. Ive been in and out school for 8 years and still fail at every math i take. My degree will be in engineering but the fact i have no motivation keeps me from moving forward. I currently have a decent life. Just was able to buy my own condo after living with my mom til 25. But im lonely. Day to day is a struggle just to appear fake. Thats one thing im succeeding at. No one really knows whats going on inside my head. I feel like a complete failure. Just tonight i had to withdraw from another class. So thats why im on this website. Another depressing moment.
One thing for me to due to keep my mind off of things is being active. I recently got into an active life. Outdoors helps me clear my head. One advice i have for you is find a hobby try new thing even if you fail a million times. Try it. Because eventually you find something that you enjoy and with all the failures youll have a well round skill set. Not much but something. Also when you find a hobby there are usually other people that have the same hobby which at times results in relationships. Maybe one with the opposite sex. Ive always had embedded in me amongst the suicide. Theres some reason im living, i dont know the reason but theres something and thats why im not dead.

Finish college and get a great paying career job...then if you need it, get plastic surgery...work on losing weight (I lost 60 lbs in my mid 20s after I quit smoking!)...you are still young and have all the time ahead of you...I am 56, lost my good job 5 years ago, been through 2 marriages and couple of hot live-in girlfriends (who turned out to be crazy nut jobs and not worth the headaches)...now I am unemployed, no kids, no college degree and I have gained the weight back over the last 2 years I lost 30 yrs ago...you have time to make something of your life....trust me, I can relate to your situation...but small steps and time will get you out of your situation...DONT try to be a knight in shining armor...I found that "saving" a girlfriend from a bad situation does not make everything rosy...THEIR troubles eventually tear you apart....Find someone with no serious baggage (who gets along with their family and friends and has a career and finished college)..Get YOUR life in line 1st before getting involved with a woman..hell, I am now living in an extended hotel while job hunting..wish I had finished my degree in college....trust me it can get a lot worse..I had to give up my dogs when I lost my last job and moved out of the rental house...I am in an area where there are no jobs in my field (electronics, telecom)...especially for 56 yr olds....My dogs were my "kids" and now they are gone..its been 2 years and I cry about that still to this day...I hope they are ok and alive...but I cant see them..it would make things worse....I would trade to be 19 again so I can do things different than I grew up with...trust me...it CAN be worse....get a degree and a career...once you have your life together, things will fall in line...Dont do bars? Good, you don't want a woman from there anyway, do you??? DONOT date on the job....get involved with friends and maybe a group from your college...(I had a 19yr old girlfriend who had horrible acne when it popped up...once it cleared up she was sexy and beautiful as hell...but she had other problems....and I broke it off)...Dont let a girl get IN your head or heart until you are ready for it...work on yourself 1st....looks can be changed....and you're only 19...you still have some time left "growing".....dont throw it away like I did...

Bro bro bro, I'm 21 years old and I've had sex with 36 girls I've been counting. I'm not proud of it at all because I really have nothing to show for it.. I'm also feeling depressed and worthless/ I'm good looking im still in school (college) and I have people in my life who love me and care for me... But I feel like I have no emotions for them it's like I can't love. Trust me things aren't always easier for better looking more successful people.. Life's what you make of it how you look at it what you do about it/in it .. Just keep your head up and keep pushing forward if you feel a need go for it even if it's hitting on a 30 year old sexy *** girl with a perfect body and u know u have 0% of a chance! Atleast you had the balls to try! Same goes for getting a good education/having a family/ or even standing up for yourself. Give yourself a reason to give yourself credit so when you look in that mirror you see the person you want to see out of yourself. Even if you may not be the best looking dude I gurantee your not the ugliest and even if you were a damn good attitude would completely make a difference! **** this speech is long I think I just motivated myself... This sexy mother ******* going to bed I hope this helped your sexy nerdy *** out now get yo *** up and live boyy! (:

I am 27 years old. Iam a girl and i don't feel at all that i am a female.I hate by body. I feel that i am fat even if my friends say to me that i am not. I used antipsychitaric pills and i am in depression for the last 4 years. I understand that you feel pain in your hurt and that you feel ungly and useless as a person but everyone for us feels like this. I want to suicide, i today i will put an end to my life. I cannot stand anymore this pain in my hurt, i used to cry a lot but i finish with tears. I start to feel more afraid tahn ever and more tired than ever, i want to end this situation. No one understand me, i adon't kow if you understand me.Do you?

I am about to be 19. whatever you posted is 95% the same case with me. now after i have failed, I dont see any purpose of my life. Even if others try to motivate me, the motivation doesnt help coz i know that however hard i try and get through in my life, i know that I'm not going to achieve what i dreamt for. I wanted to be an aerospace engineer but now i see it totally impossible for me. I loved a girl,she is a youtube celebrity...so no chances. I am short and ugly. I lack confidence.I didnt achieve anything in my life that would give me confidence.I dont want to live an average life and see my friends,neighbours,relatives progressing and commenting on my failure. I want to end this life in a painless manner, want some suggestions. If i cant achieve, I must quit. My life is burdain for my parents. Afterall people die everyday uselessly..so what if i die. It would not matter to anyone and I'll be relieved from those staring eyes towards me. The enjoyment of life is in some other's hand. I cant get up.

I am 19 year old, I do sports and I've been playing since last five years , my problem is these days I am getting failed in every single match and it is shameful , if hurts a lot I really wanna suicide , can't stop tears inside

I hate myself too. I'm 21 and I'm lonely, and I can't get a job. My friends don't understand; they assume I'm lying about how hard I try to get a job; because they don't understand how someone who tries as hard as I do could possibly go months and years without getting one. I've had one job, and I kept it for a month, and I haven't had a single interview since. I'm scared to even approach women my age. I haven't had any sort of romantic or sexual contact for more than a year and a half—which may not sound like a very long time to some people on here, but I'm not a virgin; so, to me, it is crushing. I've had one gf, and our relationship lasted 2 years, but I hated it. It was a sham; I never really revealed myself to her, and she wasn't a good match for me, anyway—I just clung to her; because I was scared of letting go. And I should note that I never had sex with my gf; each of the 5 times I've had sex was a meaningless hookup. I'm in college, but I only get good grades half the time. The other half of the time, I'm too dazed out on weed to focus; because, like you, I also do little else other than toke and drink with my friends. I use chemicals to escape; as well as music, video games, novels, and anime.

You seem lucky, I hate that I'm too successful, have a nice sexy wife and earn dam tones of too much ****** money. I wish we could switch...na!

same here but you're lucky you have nothing to restrict you from killing yourself in my religion self suicide isn't allowed its mean that i have to endure all the pain and rage for life

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Dude...that's one of the most honest letters I've ever read. One thing is certain - you're a good writer. I'm an English professor and an editor, so I can assure you that you have some real writing chops. As for your life circumstances, they do seem to be overwhelming, don't they? I've been there myself and I know what it's like to have such pain and sadness that you want a way out. Millions of people deal with feelings such as yours everyday - you're not alone in your depression. Your letter is full of self-loathing, and I relate to that as well. I've been there. My opinion? 1. Focus on writing. You may have a career as a journalist or professional blogger. 2. Join a gym that trains guys like us in MMA (mixed martial arts - the stuff you see on TV such as the UFC). If you feel weak, ugly, powerless and lack confidence, you won't after a few sessions with a good MMA instructor. You'll put on muscle and begin to think differently about yourself in every way. That's what exercise can do for us. Men who are into MMA often began the journey feeling lost and afraid, needing a way to fight their way out of despair. Rather than deciding to give up, they've fought to improve themselves physically, emotionally, and even spiritually. Being of short stature isn't an issue in MMA. Look at UFC fighter statistics online. You'll notice that many of the guys aren't tall - in fact, height can be a detriment in the octagon. Most men who practice mixed martial arts will be respectful of you and will cheer you on. And, maybe one out of 10 of them could be considered "good looking." But they're confident, have earned respect, have the attention of women and for the most part, are self-assured men.
I hope my ideas help. You're a good man.

I feel the same way...i wrote my finals and made all my papers but i failed maths,my parents are sooooo disappointed in me especially my dad. At first,i wanted to die but i thought it wise and said 'who freakin cares'?

Same here friend, and I more than understand the strain this has on your sense of self. Lots of whiskey and heroin would do it ofc but I'm still holding out for the idea of a spiritual awakening on dmt or some ****. Remove various culturally imposed patterns of behaviour, realise your own subjective truth, yadda yadda. So keep that in mind if you did feel close to the end. mother ****** dmt elves n ****.

Have you tried online dating like pof.com? Its a free dating site and it matches you with others like you. Just as you feel no one gets you, there are girls out there who feel the same way who would be the perfect match for you but you haven't met them yet. Its hard to meet people when you are introverted and don't go out mucj but online dating makes it a lot easier.

STAY AWAY FROM ONLINE DATING! I'm 25 and have been single all my life. I'm an Asian guy, which we are one of the least desirable guys in North America! Girls from all ethnic backgrounds ignore me and I'm not even ugly! I try to talk to them like a normal person, but it doesn't matter because of my skin colour. I hate myself so much, sometimes I cry and other times I feel like ending it all.

Hey dude try 25 and not even 1 girlfriend..........
you still have time buddy

Wow! Im so sorry. I apologize for all who have done u so wrong from a female standpoint. I know exactly how u feel. Mines comes from a single mom status. I loved high. school because of my family in marching band. I wasn't great n academics either but awesome wit playing percussion. I'm 34 now & have major responsibilities. I cant get a man just like u said about girls. I do get laid a lot(did) ended up with stds most of the time.(have one now I'm treating I get repeatedly, this is no# 7) My immune system is low fighter because of it. Men see me as screwable & not wifeable. Can't have anymore kids(have 4 boys grade school age). So that marriage by the bible is out. I have reading comprehension problems(failed college courses no one wished to help me in that area). I have only one friend(I think). My sons dad(they all have different ones) won't help in support of their child. I've lost all my livelihood due to issues with my back (was abused most of my life my back was always the target to mess up not my face). I use to attempt suicides & they backfired on me. I'm still here. I'm unhappy wit my life because no one stood up for me when I needed them to. They became my enemy too. Bystanders are worse than the bully. We r the same difference is I'm a black woman & have a family to be in charge of. We all need help. Death isn't the way. Finding what makes us happy & ONE person who cares enough to stand up as that supporter for you is more than enough. I feel better knowing I'm not the only one feeling the way I did. I'm still pressing on one step at a time. Its easier said than done. Don't give up. Id date u. why? Because we r the same n situation.

there are plenty of girls who would go out with you.. dont give up.. its a bloody phase.. there are ugly/loser girls as well and one of these days you'll meet one and be perfect for each other.. killing your self in not an option as you will sell your life for nothing.. and there is nothing after this so complete darkness and silence for eternity.. enjoy your time here cause its the only thing we have..

The real question is why do you care so much about so many things? It's the society we live in gives us so much pressure. You don't need to be successful. Everyone wants to be happy and they struggle so much for it. Just accept everything and try to be happy and you don't need anything else

I understand your feelings. If it makes you feel any better my longest relationship only lasted for 5 days. Now that's ******* pathetic.

A great man once said: be the change you want to see in the world. Try to pursue that which makes you passionate. I can tell you're hurting but believe me, there are others out there who have bigger problems than yourself. You have plenty to live for as pain is temporary. be

It's like death in slow motion. I'm in college and I know it's only a matter of time before I fail out. I used to be in the Air Force but now I can't even fly... I'm terrified to even get in a car and drive. All I can do now is stay indoors away from everyone. I wake up and I have already been defeated. My family has left me (not that they were worth much anyway) and no one gives a **** about me, all they do is take advantage of me. I've lost all I had, all my trust... everything for that matter. What is there left?

I feel you.

I really hope your still with us, nothing is that bad just remember everything passes good times follow bad like a big wheel. Everyone has fear and self doubt at times but life is truly precious. Please don't give up x x

Accept Islam and read Quran

I can't do it anymore. I have lost my home, my job, my wife, my son and now my nephew who is my heart. I reach out to get help from people I love but they don't understand what I'm going through. They just get angry at me and call me selfish. Today is the day I am going to take my pain away. I am thinking I am gonna drive around and find the tallest building I can that I can find roof access to and get it over with. I am not gonna say good by or tell anyone what is gonna happen becuz they will either not believe me OR just get mad & call me selfish. I am not a selfish person............I give my all to the ones I love but still end up alone when I need someone to be there for me. I need this pain to go away & counseling & meds are not helping. I wish I was important enough for my wife to respond to my calls or text messages............but I'm not. I need her so much right now & she doesn't give a **** about me when I'm alive so I'm sure she won't give a **** in a few hours when I'm gone. She wants a divorce so this will save both of us from having to put ourselves through that. I need to do this for ME today because I am tired of hurting like this every day. I don't have anything left.

I hope your still around.

I can relate to most of your feelings. In 2013 I tried to kill myself twice and today I don't really feel any better than what I did then. It is a very overwhelming, degrading feeling I know. My case at school was very extreme, odd, abnormal. Meanwhile I was very ADD, dreamy and nothing occurred as important like exams. While everybody passes, I would fail by getting either zero or 2 out of 20 for tests.

ever herd of dyslexia? it may be the reason school and video games are hard for u. besides bullying jerks. look it up. another thing is u must remember to go at your own pace in every aspect of life you are where u are for a reason.

i am going through the same situation except know one believes me, my family thinks i am a screw up, and i just wanna end my life

Me to i hate living this ****** existence and the people that are supposed to care just make things worse. I want to die. I try so hard only to fall behind even further. If i wasn't on here id probably be dead already from holding it inside.

Please don't kill yourself. You are very young and honestly your hormones are affecting your perceptions. That does not mean that your perceptions or feelings are solely influenced by hormones. But honestly your situation will change. Just focus on something other than how other people view you. Whatever that has to be. It can't involve other people. A hobby, school, etc. Find something to dedicate yourself to. You will succeed. Revel in that accomplishment and honestly bide your time. Things change. I am 29 and you will think I'm old and don't have much to contribute, but honestly about 15 years ago I wanted to kill myself almost every day. I do know how you feel. Your life will change with or without you. Won't you wonder what would have happened without you in it?

Start reading all the spiritual texts. Start from Bible, then Bhagwad Gita, then Quran, etc. Find the similarities and aim to help poors. Live for others. Make others happy, and God and people will make you happy ;)

you should bcome a writer and study some psychology if you can, just my impression but dont take my word for it. It's your call.

hope you find out what makes you happy. From my perspective or what i feel people have told me the only things that can help are: God, God's love, wisdom, reading the bible constantly/consistently, and having someone who loves you ( a person who would give you the time you neeed and be willing to find a friend who would hug u unconditionally--there are people like that it might not appear so but im sure if you look hard enough you'll find them, and if not or like me might be too scared, you can also go to counselling or a nearby health and mental health counselling centre or public profesional (like a doctor, lawyer, police officer, heck you could even talk to some stranger that loooks nice--rem: God works in mysterious ways) :) hope this helps good luck man, dude--i really you hope you find love, and i really hope you can find a way to be happy and complete in and with your life and/or with its purpose and/trajectory...good luck god bless you man :) <3

and also/finally i hope you can find lovve in Jesus Christ personally i think he might be the best friend you ever hav--he could give you his Holy Spirit and God would never leave you or forsake you, but reading the bible would be oyur best 1st step for some way to alleviate/gain some perspective and offer some solace--but personally a genuine and really respectful and full-hearted/good natured and wholly good person who really loves people and others works the best/just as well (these people are often God sent, or they probably are)--from my experience they are but who knows u might find the right person(s) after all.


P.S. the devil works in mysterious ways and is constantly plotting for your destruction so dont let bothersome circumstances/situations get you down--see the story of Job in the bible in the book of Job (goood luck man and God bless you:) cheers! :)

P.S. i have personally gone thru depression too and am currently battling suicidal thoughts but if you can find a way to be happy and get the needed help from God or friends or whatever/whomever--then that is somethiing greatly tto be treasured :)

I read once that no ever "attempts" suicide, you either kill yourself or you don't. Meaning that, if you are posting/reading here then you are still alive because you want to be, which is the natural and perfect state of a human being, which is what you are. Try getting outside of your self and focus on helping someone else or making the world a better place. You are unique, no matter how weird you view yourself, there is only one you in existence, and the only YOU that will ever be. You are literally one in billions.

Failing that, the quickest and most painless way to end it all is a shotgun blast or bullet to the temple (with a 99% fatality success rate).

Cheers.

I feel the same way, My mom and Dad always brags about my brother and sometimes my sister. Never me I have always felt like the odd girl out been bullied, depression, and anger. I not bullied any more because I told then to leave me alone and when they didn't I would either punch or kick sometimes push people. I did not like taking carp from people but lately my wall against the world has been breaking and breaking then came tumbling down. Now what the say hurts. My mom lately has been calling me a ***,stupid,ungrateful,brat. And I can't take it I have. Tried to committing suicide about 8 times and as you can see didn't work. At home they treat me like a maid to wait on them do all the dishes mop the floors and sweep, clean the bathroom wash the Windows, do everybody's laundry. And I'm tired of it.

For everyone here who's response is to treat them with severe optimism I would let it go, by the sounds of this they wrote it so that they would get sympathy not exactly love, just someone who has it the same or worse. For the writer I suggest that you find a job, hire a hooker if you want to get laid. More importantly I suggest that you seek psychiatric help because you are without a doubt in a state of depression. I give similar advice to many of the other commentators who had similar stories.

I feel the same way. My whole life i have been picked on and made fun of. People are always talking about me behind my back. Im 23 and i havent had a girlfriend since i was 17. Women just dont like me. Who could blame them. Who could ever love a pathetic piece of **** like me.Everyday i wake up and wish that it all would end. My family doesnt understand me and they dont even try. Im done with it all. Please help me end it painlessly. Help me do it please. I cant take it anymore.

To all of you. Every single one of you. I love you. I know what it is like as some of your stories were my story. I can't lie, scars are scars and some are deep and painful. The truth is that some of them will heal, and others will fade but will always be there in the background radiating their own kind of pain in your life. This is a truth, and I am so damn sorry that it is a truth for some of you out there.

However...

However, with deep pain comes deep joy. I can promise you that. I noticed that many of you are young, and in some cases very young. So please entertain me a little bit here. I used to live in the desert a while back ago. The sun set came, and the sunrises came as well, and as all of the sunsets and sunrises in my life they were as significant an event as any red car that would pass me on the street. An every day occurrence. Nothing special. Until one day I stopped and just took it in. I mean really took this blazing red, yellow and orange sunset in. It looked like the sky was on fire. The sun just barely sitting on the horizon was amazing. The sky was amazing. Everything for just that moment was perfect. And it occurred to me, that sun, that sky, that whole scene unfolding before me was absolutely unaware of me. I didn't exist in its eyes. I was nothing to it, and yet there I was, its audience. And although it was not aware of me, I was very aware of it. I was engaged with it, and for a moment I WAS IT. For all I knew at that moment I could very well have been its only appreciator. I was engaged with this beautiful and amazing event, inseparable from it. In that short moment, my life and everything I was was put into perfect perspective. Although it seemed I was utterly insignificant, I realized that I am a part of that event unfolding. I am significant. I am as important as light is to our planet and I don't even have to lift a finger to try.

So let me put this into perspective if I can. I know that some of you feel a great and vast pain. You are deep in the valley. You are in pain, your self worth is shot, your so called "loved ones" treat you like an enemy. However, the deeper the valley, the higher the hills to climb. And they are a painful climb I can assure you. They will scrape the skin off of your bones, bust your legs, wear your fingers to nubs, but you know the valley don't you? Your intimate with being down, kicked down, beat down, put down. You know the bottom of the pit, and you know it well. But every valley has a hill, and every pit has a top to it.

Climb.
One.
Foot.
In.
Front.
Of.
The.
Other...

Don't look back down, you know that terrain. Look up, look at where your hands are placed, calculate your next move and focus that pain and lift yourself up to the next ledge, to the next foothold. Climb.

Life hurts sometimes. For some of us it feels as if life hurts all the time. Good, you know pain and strife, but think of it like this. Somewhere there is a sunset that is putting on one hell of a show, and for all you know everyone has their heads buried in their cell phones and to their next appointment, their next career move. What a shame that such an amazing show should go without just one person who can sit on top of that mountain that they damn near killed themselves to get to the top of so that they can sit quietly and watch the universe do its thing. And I can assure you the cruelty of the world will be down below you waiting to beat you back down, to assure itself in its smug little way that you are a nothing, that your a failure. But what it doesn't know is that you have been to the top of the mountain and had concert with kings. At that point, it all becomes perspective. And once you have that taste in your mouth, it is a taste that brands itself upon who you are as a person. It BECOMES YOU.

Yeah my friends, sometimes pain doesn't go away. But with that pain comes empathy, compassion, and kindness. Remember that.

“Damaged people are dangerous. They know they can survive.”
— Josephine Hart

I love you, and I wished I could bring you greater comfort. Please don't give up. too much out there. Too much to see. Too much to do. Too much to love. Too much love to give back.

My husband just told me to pack my bags and leave because I toiled him not to switch off the A/c. It's so hot. 38degrees and I'm 30 weeks pregnant. I feel like ending my life. I don't have a place to go. I don't have a job. I have two small kids at home and I keep thinking who's going to take care of them if I die. I'm so down and I want to yell out loud. All the sad feelings are boiling up inside me. Please help me.

what a ****** hushand! how outrageous of him to tell you something like this at such a time. wow

I feel the same. We're almost the same.
I'm 29, male and clinically depressed. I have a ton of things about myself that I feel are deficiencies. I too am funny looking.. But that's not the big issue, but we will get to that. The family that loved me is all dead. The only surviving family member is a mean hurtful self centred slave driver who tells me things no mother should tell their child. I live somewhere where getting a job is easy as **** but I have no drive to do it. I don't want to contribute to the society I despise so istead I support myself by panhandling and busking. I get by. I smoke entirely too much weed but only because of the lack of hope in my life. I haven't had a girlfriend since I was a homeless crystal meth addicted 17 year old. Haven't even been laid in like 4 years. The women I do occasionally get to sleep with are filthy pigs I would never openly admit to touching. I have zero self confidence in any aspect of life. My social skills are nil, I am angry all the time, I pick fights just to get the anger out. I go to jail for it and yell at the cops for treating me like the piece of **** that I know that I am but I refuse to think its justified. I'm so full of despair I wish for death, but I'm so angry I want to make others feel some of my pain. I am a genuinely caring and kind person but there's only so much we can take. I live to travel, sleep outside, beg for food/clothes/money. I always thought that if I toughed it out things would get better-frabkly, I regret buying into that crap. Things have been worse and worse every year that goes by. I get angrier and loathe everything that much more every year. Christmas is especially hard for me (except panning is pretty good around Xmas) because of the lack of love in my life. I spend the entire month of December remembering the people who loved me but who are now not of this world. I cry. I get mad, hit things. I want to kill the sonofabitch who took them from me. I can't.
When I was a child I had reoccurring dreams, many of them. One was where I'd be in a position where id have to defend myself but every punch or kick I threw had no power-like I was made of styrofoam or something. I never understood as a child/teen what the hell tht meant. I do now though. It means; no matter how hard you try you just can't win. You will fail. ****** deal.
I was birthed by a 16 year old woman. Grew up in a dope house. Mother was a prostitute for many years. I don't know my father. He left when mom was pregnant with me. I tracked him down at 12 years old and started a sort of relationship with him and his worthy family. I would spend weekends there and hang out with my half sisters that I had just met. I refused to call him dad because I feel that's something you have to earn. One Saturday morning over a bowl of serial I spoke his name. He asked me to call him dad and I said he has to be one first. That was that. He packed my **** and drove me to moms and I never saw him again.
I've lived outside on and off for 14 years now.. People scold me and say get a ******* job- I tell them to **** off, they don't know a ******* thing about me and if they keep **** talking ill ******* punch them out. It's so easy to judge a person and tell them what they should be doing but understanding what put that person there never happens. Everybody's so quick to judge or tell you how to fix your life but nobody considers the possibility that some wounds are incredibly deep and quick fix solutions don't help.

A little more:
I am 5'7 a bit overweight. I'd say around 200 lbs. white, brown eyes and hair. Irish heritage. I have facial hair that doesn't grow in properly. Many scars. Borderline micro-penis. I am hygiene deficient, by choice. I have NO friends because I know from experience that friends are snakes.

I am a good person inside, this I know. I care about people, feel for them. I want somebody to care for me, to not judge me for what's on the outside but really recognize the true beautiful person within. Apparently that's too much to ask. 29 and so alone I might as well be in space.

Go ahead all the Dr Phil's out there, give me your armchair psychiatrist diagnosis. Not that it's going to change anything. I'm going to take this life before my 30th birthday.

If ANYBODY cares, or maybe just needs a friend, text me. No calls will be answered. 587-400-3104

I feel the same. Only a matter of time till i buy a gun and end this. If u feel as bad as i do bout yourself save living with the pain the rwst of your life. I am.

Wow couldnt
Have described myself any better than you just described yourself. Werre the same and im pretty sure all this happy *** bullshit. All the people saying that its attitude and our choices that make us feel this way. No if you try and try. Fail. Look ugly and yes some of us do.. forget women. If ur small forget a reall job. Appearance is a lot. Some 5 7" guy isnt going to get the same job as the 5 11" or 6 2" counterpart. Im with u and understand how much it hurts to live with yourself as the burden on yourself each day and people just dont get it. Btw its not asking for pity because u say this stuff. Its juzt telling people the truth and honestly fu k everyone.

An Hero.

Holy ****!!!!! Use face cleanser to get rid of your zits. Wash your hair and cut it, shave daily, and start taking care of yourself. Once you got that right you will then start looking for a job, I dont care were, but you will find one, and you will work, and then I suggest you start going to pubs for drinks and meeting other people there. I would so spank your arse if you were my kid #justsaying.

You're right, you are pathetic. Not for any of the reasons you think, however. You're pathetic and you will never amount to anything because you've already accepted it. You're a human being for ***** sake, DO something with your life. Don't throw a pity party on EP saying that you've had it so rough, you're only 19 dude. I didn't lose my virginity until I was 18, but guess what? It's scary your first time, but then you realize you CAN do it, then you build confidence and move on.

I was never good at anything in school either, I'm a horrible student. But it's not about achieving top of the class, or being the best. School work is standardized, we're NOT standardized people. Find your niche, your passion, your artistic expression and cultivate it. Get off your ***, stop smoking weed and do something with your life, it's short, it's beautiful and it's a hell of a ride.

You're only as pathetic and ****** as you make yourself to be. You're your own worst enemy dude, it's not about how many times life throws you down; it's about how many time you get back up off your *** and move on. Life is hard for everyone, and we all have our stories. Stop being a *****, be the man that you are and make something of yourself. Prove yourself wrong

Shoot yourself in the ***

shut up please

Well lemme tell u sumthin Alejandro..well I'm a 17year old chick who has a family or do I..since I was a very young gal was always treated like **** always bullied in every single school I went to I always tot I had a father but only ta find out I never but I always saw by da way I was treated dat this aint no biological father...when I was 12 he raped me tried telln my family and thy didn't blv me..I was beaten blk and blue by 4family memmbers @ da same tym and he was da 5th person beatin me up cz he said I was disrespectin him and lowering his image..thy kicked me outa da house went ta stay with my grandparents than I was a child again then my grandpa died recently and thy came ta stay with us I always felt left out my 2half sistaz hate my guts I try bonding with my half brada but he doesn't seem intersted..whn its dinner tym thy all eat 2gead and tell me ta get outa da room..(Hy don't support me financilly or anyhow thy don't gv me food,money and thy took me outa school..I started misbehavin cz neva had love frm my parents started smokin drinkn partyn and every single fucken my mum colz me names like hoes,****,*****,good 4 nothin useless *****,thy took me ta da police once whn I was 15 and the police beat me blk and blue cz thy lied abt evrythn I always wish I could die but neva had da courage ta do dat I just sometimes wish I culd be hit by a car,train,bus I tried commitn suicide 3tymz neva worked.always had no Luck in love always heartbroken,sometimes I wish I was ugly so guys wnt approch me I just want da easiest yet painless way to fucken kill myself if I we're ta write every thing thy do to me @ home it wuld be a 78page story..plzzzz I wanna die just tell me how ta do it painlessly...alejandro Let's die 2geda..cz @ da end we will die so its better we die now!

It hurts inside doesn't it...the pain of loneliness, abandonment, failure and disbelief. The collective destruction of your world by those you thought you loved. I had that feeling...I had that pain. I enjoyed the pain, it was the only emotion they gave...It was the only emotion I understood. But then I looked at those that hated me; "this" was what they wanted. This was the me they wanted to create; the me they wanted gone; the me they wanted dead. They kept me alive for their pleasure; when I wanted the pain.

And then it happened...I changed. Then the day came, not for me, but for them. I stopped being the **** they wanted me to be. I stopped crying and sulking; moaning and drowning; hanging and cutting. I STOOD UP.

This life is MINE. Its not theirs, yours, her's, his'. ITS MINE. I will not cower in the face of disgust I WILL RELISH IN IT. If you want me dead then I will LIVE. If you want me to fall I will reach beyond the STARS just so I can laugh at you from above. I WILL NOT DIE.

You have told me your life story I'm afraid I cannot repay you with mine. You must understand that your wounds will heal, your bruises will settle and the pain will subside, but not if you give up.

You are not alone; we may not be beside you to hold and protect you, but you are not alone. You have friends here. Friends willing to go through hell and back with you just so we can make jokes and laugh along the way.

Pain will continue until the very end. If you're still feeling pain; then it is not the end.

Do NOT let them win.

Good luck princess.

Ohgoshie darling, you are beautiful. You are gorgeous, you are worth more than gold. You are a precious gem, and God loves you more than anything. You are on this world for a reason! You are more important than anything anyone could ever do. You are more valuable than ANYTHING. I want you to live, you are awesome amazing, and out of this world important. YOu may not have love from family, but I love you, GOD loves you. He has been with you this whole time. You have a testimony, turn your life around and use it to help others just like you. Babygirl, I need you in this world. Love, you are loved!!!! Don't waste this gift called life. I am praying for you! I LOVE YOU and I mean it babygirl!

SISTER YOU ARE GOING THROU HARD TIME BUT DONT THINK ABOUT SUISIDE THIS WONDERFULL GIFT OF LIFE IS NOT JUST LIKE THAT happy time will come in your life try to make a relation with GOD god loves you and he is closer to you than anyone in this WHOLE WORLD so go to THE ONE AND ONLY ONE GOD and ask him he will reward you for all your deeds on the JUGEMENT DAY so be prepare AND you are loved by millions dont fool yourself that you are alone WE ALL ARE SON AND DAUGHTER of ADAM , cheer up , do whatever you find amazing enjoy the freedom given to us by GOD , ADN DO good to yourself ,sister

Let me tell you something you have already figured out, life is tough. Its a piece of **** that with kick your *** over and over. It will knock you down and beat you while you scramble for breath. It will not stop or quit; it will not rest or sleep; it will not cower or wait. Life does not give up and THIS...is why we die.

But god dam it you will not die today. If life takes your dreams you GET THEM BACK! If it tears our your arms you KICK IT BACK! If it take out your legs you BITE IT BACK!

Now I can't stop you from your choices, you're going to have to stop yourself. Because there is only one person facing your life and that YOU. Its YOU vs the world, vs the bullies, vs the girls, vs the strangers, vs life. And you will CLAW and DIG IN with your FINGERNAILS at every chance you get to rise up. And when you fall...when you fail, when they laugh , and when you cry; You will stand up crying, you fight bleeding and you will win laughing. Life's got you on the ropes and either you fight back and walk out this ring a winner, or you will die.

Good luck soldier.

I'm 14 and thinking about suicide because I was being bullying at school and online ;( I got beaten, insulted, threatened death almost every day at school!! I barely even have friends at my class, I'm also being treated like **** at home. No point to live anymore, I curse the day I was born

Don't do it! It might be scary but go to the nurse say your sick. When you get there tell the Nurse. Someone will help you out! Things might be tough right now but they will work out in the end.

I know you don't whant to hear some positive **** that will not help at all.
I am as stuck as you are, I have tried countless of times to kill myself but I just could't bring myself to do it.
You see I have a younger sister and it will kill me if she end up like me pathetic, worthless and lets not say all the sickness I have goten myself into for just bieng me.
I know that dying would be just easy get reid of everything and thats it, but sometimes I think that what would happen to her i'm her role model (wich is funny I should be the oposite of that) I can not do that to her.
So I decided no matter how puch it hurts, how deep Fall and how even do I know there's no such thing as hope for me anymore I will be there for her.
I'm even stronger than whatI was for staying alive.
I just hope that you realize that you are not a failure you made me write this and I really think you made a difference by posting this. SO THANK YOU!

Stop ******* thinking about what you look like from the outside. The only thing that matters is your view out to the world. You can give up and die(It will do nothing but mess up the life of the people you love) The people he hate can give a ****. But thats the easy way out. I say Get mad! Don't let this ******* ball of dirt get the best of you. Find something you like a be the best at it. Change what you can about yourself and forget about what you cant. But really Don't ******* kill yourself because high school sucked ****. High School sucks and if you die you will give the bullies what they wanted.

I feel what ur like my family hates me and I have absolutely no achievments in life. No will really understand what's going on inside ur head. I tried to commit suicide but then my ******* parents found out.

i want to commit suicide. im 26, failing to get a job while watching the rest of my age group succeed and move forward with their lives. im tired. im exhausting of endlessly dreaming and searching for work. i have a high school diploma, a post high school diploma, and didnt complete my degree (i would if i could have a job to pay for it, but no one will employ me). i dont have a criminal record. it even hurts just writing all of it coz ....oh **** who cares

ive attempted suicide seriously twice with one of those times almost working if I wasn't discovered by a family member I would of died they ****** up my chance back then so now im on meds and life has only gotten worse I have social anxiety bi-polar disorder and major depressive disorder not to mention im a loser dead beat drug addict and alcoholic ive seriously had enough! people shouldnt have to suffer in side there mind and trapped with there body being the prison I hope family and friends understand I couldn't live another day soon I wll take all my meds I feel death coming on quickly.

I'm 22yearz..I tried 2commit suicide many tymz..Nobody understand the person I am,nobody knows the pain I'm feeling.I hardly sleep @ night.I'm a failure,I'm nothing and I have nothing.I curse the day I waz born..

You're not the only one. I'm only 16 turning 17 and i'm pretty much what like you except the smoking and drinking. Ever since i was young i knew i knew i'd be a loner. I never do anything right, i'm barely passing school. I'm freaking worthless. Never even had a girlfriend unless 1st grade counted. But honestly theres always at least that one person that you just have to be patient for that will make you regret wanting to commit suicide. I haven't found mine cuz well i'm like this anti social kid in the school. Just don't give up too quickly while you have so many years left in you.

Aye...........There Is No Mercy In Life...Life Sucks...........I M Going....Bye To All My Precious Friends and other **** *******

to die is to get rid of this ****....so sucide is now only way.....i am a failure and i m gonna die.....bye all.......inpiration sucks!!! good by.....see u in hell....

Life Is Nothing.......there is no such word as mercy...so **** this life....i m gonna die....now.....bye all buddys....and its nothing like hell or heaven ........its science everywhere........so bye world...i m getting free......**** all ppl who are responsible for my failure.....[i m not the only one who r responsible for failure]....bye all......and i never wanna take birth again...

I wanna die too cuz I have nothing. I have been married for 16 years until my wife asked for a divorce. I realize that I was the one that screwed up and I was the one that cheated. I was trying to get my life together, but was still going to ***** clubs 6 months before she asked for the divorce and still looking at **** a month before she asked. we finally divorced 10 months ago and I feel like crap. we have 2 wonderful teenage boys that keep me sane, but I just don't feel as a positive person anymore and just want to jump in front of a train or get in a firkin car accident or just buy a gun and kill myself :(

Hi -

I understand. I will tell you that I am 51 years old, broke, homeless until last month and have been trying to get a job since March 1, and am now out of money, too. I don't have any way to pay June's rent. I am beside myself with panic and frustration and despondency, the same despondency you feel.

I wish I could tell you to cheer up, but I also want to tell you to me at the bridge and let's get this miserable joke called "life" over with already. Let's get out of our bodies, let's stop taking up oxygen, let's leave this world to the people with families who love them, people who aren't walking jokes and pathetic, let's just die. It's going to happen anyway and life is full of struggle and frustration. A very, very few people control how billions of people live on planet earth and that's the way it's going to stay - and you and I aren't one of them. We're ants, expendable and the world is better off without us.

People will tell you, "Hang in there!" and to be positive, and that good things come to those who wait. I tell you, that's a lie. What happens is you go through your 20s, 30s and 40s and you see life is a cruel joke that favors the few, and the rest are doomed to struggle for absolutely nothing, and then die.

Sorry I can't be more positive.

We're alike you and I. I understand you. These are my thoughts everday.

I am in an overwhelmed, avoidance-based, feeling like a loser phase right now - some of what you said resonated with me, but especially some of the encouraging comments below did. You do actually write well - no run-ons like my first "sentence". It is a given that things will change. You probably feel that means they will get worse (I do often). A support group I used to attend (and likely should again) emphasizes "do the next indicated thing to the best of your ability". Don't kill yourself, man. Do something - lots of good advice below.

do not think like hat I am 33 years old and dieing from a desiese that I have it scares the **** out of me I thought of suiside my whole life but I never did it . life is to precious .

quit being such a *****

No Just No

Umm, you could sit in a running car in the garage and let the exhaust fumes do you in. Bro, I know how you feel and I would want advice for how to do myself in if I were you. I just hope you're serious and not fishing for compliments cause that would be weak. I have my death all planned out. I'll help you plan yours. I believe everyone has the right to take their own life.

You are a good writer though...

I am 26 years old and I have been where you are. In high school you may think that everyone is so beautiful and you are so ugly, but as we get older we all become ugly and only cosmetics and surgery make us OK to look at : ) Trust me, ugly people fall in love with other ugly people all the time and have sex too, its the most common thing in the world. Its not only the "hot" people who get to have those experiences, despite what you may think from watching TV! I am a female and I was not even interested in men (or women) until I was 21 years old. What really turned my life around was joining the military, it improved my confidence, I learned that people could respect me and even want to follow me. I tried to keep things low key as an enlisted mechanic, but with hard work the advancements and awards kept coming. This despite my intense feelings of low worth and hopelessness in high school. Turn your life around by doing something you are afraid of, or something you think are unworthy to do (not suicide). You can't force love, but you can focus on your career. You are smart enough and talented enough to make your wildest dreams come true.

Alejandro, don't do it mate. You are worth something! You are. You just don't realize it. You have talents, you just don't know what they are yet..you are young..there is much to see and do out there!
Where are you..reply to me..u are at the bottom..but the only way is up from here..fight back..**** the people who dislike you..don't give them the satisfaction, they are wrong..shout it out if you makes you feel better..FUC* THOSE PEOPLE..I AM ALIVE..I WILL STAND UP..

Don't commit suicide; it's so permanent. Life can spin on a dime. Just go travelling. Go to India or Asia and meet and get to know a bit about how much life is out there. There is so much more to life than the bit where you live. Just get on a plane and get ready with an open mind.

Do one think , go to a site , and take ur pics in diff style , and watch dise pics every day for two weeks . And u kink u stil u want to die , take one sleeping pil and lay down on a rail track

Believe in Christ and put your old self to death. Start by praying for God to take over. The Holy Spirit will dwell in you and you are no longer your old self

shoot yourself in the head so you won't feel any pain :) glad to help ! tip: try kill everyone that has made you angry that will make you feel better before you die :D use shotgun suppressed

"Pro" helper *sigh* look mate I wont sugar coat it for you a lot of the time I want to end it too but don't give those sons of hitches the satisfaction don't listen to that ***** prohelper if youshoot your self with a 9mm it'll tucking bounce off and hurt like ******* hell and turn you into a vegetable. What really helped me was joining the millitary armoured division. I haven't felt a single urge since I joined and I have a brotherly connection with my crew mates we we would die for one another. Anyway DO NOT waste it search all over the bloody globe if it helps you find your purpose. Trust me it will payoff when you find your purpose but don't give the bastards any satisfaction from your death and stay away from COD ******** like "pro"helper (I mean really? A suppressed shotgun?)

well honestly bro call a **** if you really cant get ****** dumb son of a ***** i think you can get layed i think u just dont wanna

Hang in there mate! Pick something you like and work at it until you are good at it.Take up a martial art to build up your confidence- the style isn't important but the instructor is; make sure he is some-one you can relate to.Start exercising and cut back on the alcohol.Females like guys that make them feel good about themselves.They aren't fixated on looks like we are.You have friends, so that is really important, remember that.Go see a prostitute to lose your cherry and then you'll wonder what all the fuss was about.Also, I think you should see a doctor to check if you have clinical depression-you may need to take an anti-depressant until you get on top of things.Forget what the bullies said to you- bullies are losers who get their pathetic kicks from picking on people that have feelings, something they don't possess.**** them! You are only nineteen and can build a good life for yourself. We have to build a life,take control of our destiny.Never be afraid to ask for help or guidence from older people that have been there and done that.Eat healthy,exercise and take care of yourself !

Anyone who needs to talk to someone, pm me! When you're at the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on!

I am where you are now, i want out so badly. How do i do it witout hurting my family and friends. I feel worthless and just want to disappear..

Don't listen to those fools, there is no imaginary creator called god. He cannot make your life better. I too often wish I never woke up this morning but you know what does help? Marijuana. It is the sole reason I get up everyday. Ill be alone til I die but somehow, marijuana fills in just a tiny bit of love that I so desperately desire. Also, as I read in the replies, a dog helps a lot. I cannot leave knowing my best friend will die without me protecting him from my piece of **** parents.

The only reason you are still alive is marijuana. I often tried to suffocate myself as a child til I found marijuana. Now, despite all the terrible things in life, I know I can look forward to getting high this week. This is not a joke even though the christians will find this offensive, in fact religion's grip on society is a factor in wanting to die. I cannot believe so many people actually believe in "god" it is so ridiculous. I do not want to live around such terrible people who will murder in the name of the fake. Religion breeds hatred and intolerence and I bet a good majority of your bullies go to church.

Just keep on toking and life will not hurt so much. I know if I stopped worshipping marijuana, I would lose the desire to live.

Not that I'm especially religious but it helps to believe in some form of greater purpose and you posses an advanced form of addiction please seek help or therapy immediately drugs and binge drinking is never a solution it only speeds up your spiral.

I am 24 years old and still in a similar situation... I know how u feel.... I wish I was never born....

Your healthy, where are you.. You are not worthless..I will help you.

Im exactly in ur stage of life with some diffrent situations, but what happenes if we kill ourselves? Nothing... So why not deal with it and live ur life how u wanna live it cuz its atleast somthin eh?. **** everyone, **** school, **** people who make fun of you. If u wanna live based on what people calls or thinks of you you will never get anywhere in life.... And thats ur problem my friend just dont give a ****. And do a drug of your choice and wait till ur time is over ... Thats sad i know but thats how i've learned to deal with my life..... It wont be always darkness at some point sun must rise i just hope it wont be too late... Chears

Some times, man himself fears of a mistake, which brought him a bad reputation. He thought about an exit that would end everything, including his life.
Months passed, and yet, he haven't built the courage to do such thing, then one day he picked up something beautyful, shiny, metalic, lethal.
He aimed this sharp, lethal object called a knife to his heart, until a old, wise man came and told him that suicide is never and NEVER WILL BE the only exit.

"Placeth thou fears and mistake to the abyss of the past, as they are nothing now. Thou life is more valueable than one hundred pots of silver pieces, more than a diamond big as a boulder. I created thou so that thou shalt live until the day of your demise, decided by me, not you. Remember to keep me in thy heart, and thou shalt live as you praise me as thy God" -Jehovah


This old and wise man is God.
He's looking for you.
Reveal yourself to Him, and all of your worries will be nothing but dust.

Im no christian, but you should have faith and speak with out Holy Father, God. You are not pathetic.
You are not dumb.
No one in this world is perfect, not even me.
Suicide is not an option.
You have to, AND WILL stand up against your fears.
Ignore anyone who hates you.
Stop smoking weed.
You got plenty of people that knows you and loves you.
If you don't have anyone to love you and listens to you, now you do, and it is God and Jesus.
It takes time for them to respond to you,
just be patient.
Not good at math? Study every day and practice.
Practice always makes perfect.
Stay away from anyone who uses drugs or drinks alchohol.

If you don't want to heed these tips, may God rests your soul.

P.S: Want to avoid going to Hell? Suicide is a one-way ticket to it, so don't even rhink about it.

Live long,
Live hard,
Live healthy,
Live correctly,
Live safe,
God is always there to support you.