Too Much

I don't understand why I'm here, all different kinds of ******-up. I haven't really ever been able to just experience things without thinking about how different it would be if I was born RIGHT.

I don't know how I've managed to still be alive. I've tried several times to step off this nightmare freight-train called life, but either I'm invincible, stupid, or unlucky (A and B sound rather unlikely), but here I am, heart still bleeding in a chest I never asked for, beating to a bloody drum I never wanted.

When will I be released from this cruel torment?

Halfmoonxmindset369 Halfmoonxmindset369
26-30, T
3 Responses Sep 17, 2012

I wish I had something to say that would make you instantly feel better but to my sorrow I do not. All I can say is that we as individuals are sometimes not the best at estimating our own worth. I do not know you, we have never met or even exchanged emails but still you have touched my life and enriched it. Please understand that you are worth more than you believe and are cared about much more than you think.
As I have told anoher friend, as bad as your situation feels there is nothing that cannot be overcome given time, support, and care.

I read your story it touched me deeply, I have dealt with a spouse who deal problems of the mind, please get help. I know I sound corny but this is something that bothers me greatly. take care....

Hey sweetheart? Are you OK? If I could, I would give you a hug!