What If?

I think of this more often than I wish to. If I could just release the past and keep moving on, which I know is possible if I convince myself to do so, everything would be much better. The intrusive thought; "What if?" often keeps me awake at night. It also has the power to make me feel pretty bad when I am happy. I should not let it make me feel that way. I believe everything happens for a reason, and if it did not happen, it was not meant to be.
BellaFairy BellaFairy
26-30, F
1 Response Jul 1, 2010

Thank you for posting Bella. Hard to write/post when the hurt never really goes away. One day I will stop looking down at my scars and look up ahead to the future.<br />
For now, the scars form sinister little smiles that both comfort and mock me.