Angels in Human Form

In the following story, the character of Elizabeth is really me. This is my story...

I believe that Spirit assigned many angels to lead humans into their highest potential. Some of these angels, to fulfill their specific assignments, needed to be born into human form. In the process of being born, these angels forgot their angelic origin, however, they kept their angelic temperament.

Angels-incarnate in human form have certain recognizable characteristics. From a very early age, they tend to feel different from other people, without understanding why. Since they understand Spirit as unconditional love and acceptance, they demonstrate their angelic temperament by being loving and kind in their day to day life. It is natural for them to desire the best for all concerned, so they cannot hold a grudge for long. If provoked for long enough, they may get angry and choose to remove certain people from their lives, but they almost never seek revenge. Revenge is not a part of their angelic temperament.

Of course these Angels-incarnate have a strong sense of purpose. This is because they came to earth for a very specific purpose, to bring light and love into the world. Even when they have no direct memory of their eons as an angel with Spirit, they tend to create an incredible amount of healing and positive energy.

One common reason why the angels in human form often know they are different from other people is because they remember being ridiculed for being different. For example, one angel-incarnate named Elizabeth had problems with schoolmates when she was a child. Elizabeth was a very shy nine-year old girl who did not understand the school social structures of the other very human children. One of her classmates noticed that Elizabeth was shy and vulnerable, and therefore would be safe to pick on. With lies, vicious rumors and innuendo, what little social life Elizabeth had was destroyed as was her self-esteem and self-image. Even the classmates she thought were her friends turned on her. Elizabeth never understood how they could believe such obvious lies. She felt devastated, lonely, different and scared. Elizabeth soon dreaded going to the school that she used to enjoy so much.

When, as an adult, Elizabeth realized that she was truly an angel born into a human body, she gained a completely new perspective. Understanding her true nature, she started to reflect on her early childhood years when everything seemed wonderful, full of light and love. Indeed, everyone had said that she was a beautiful little girl with and angelic temperament. As she reflected on those early years, she remembered how those other children believed the lies of one girl and started to act like vicious pack animals. Elizabeth also became aware of how those early problems with her classmates had affected the rest of her life. She was able to look back on all the different things she had done through the years to fit in, to be likeD, to not be rejected. The results of her early emotional pain were obvious. Then she remembered all the times she instinctively helped those who needed it whether they asked for the help or not. It seemed second nature to take care of problems, to avoid conflict, and to smooth out troubles between people.

Even now, decades later, she really can’t understand why some humans act the way they do. As Elizabeth started to realize that the differences inherent in her were due to her true angelic nature, some of the fear and emotional pain started to fall away. As she also learned to establish healthy boundaries, Elizabeth noticed that she had a much more powerful attitude about life, a much better self-image, and she felt much happier.

As you are reading this story, have you been wondering if this is really true? Are there really angels here on this earth? Could you be one of those angels? If you empathize with Elizabeth and you recognize an angelic temperament within you, it is certainly a possibility. You might even be getting goose bumps as you are realizing your true angelic nature.

Being an angel-incarnate does not indicate perfection. Instead, it reveals responsibility and purpose, and helps lead to the answers of many questions which previously were mysteries. Questions like Why have I always felt so different from others?î Why is it that I sometimes experience hurt feelings, but never really hold a grudge?î Why do I have a strong sense of purpose, even though I may not know what that purpose is?î Why have I never been convinced by any of the various religious belief systems, but instead, have always had my own personal understanding of Spirit that is deep and unshakable?

Maybe it's because you're an angel...Interesting thought...Could it be true?  Think about it.

If you'd like to find me in other places besides EP, just google ZARA ANGEL, or angelreadingsbyzara

                        Love and Blessings, ZARA ANGEL
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um i think i can say i have found out this to be true as i lived what was said almost to the letter but i have also had an experience that just boggles my mind. I got really upset one day and then saw something move out of the corner of my eye to the right of me i realized it was a wing and then realized to my shock that there were two and that they were actually coming out of my back the most shocking part of this is that they were coming out where my shoulder blades are and i could actually feel them move has anyone else experienced anything like this pls help

Really interesting concept :) maybe all will join in the time of need.

I have a similar childhood experiences. Even during my adulthood, I do not have as many friends as others, compare to my siblings. I always enjoyed my own company and forgive easily. I do not care for confronation because I do not want to create dramas. Sometimes I have too much sympathy for others by giving too much and then I end up getting hurt financially and emotionally. I heard people were telling me a lot that I look like an angel when I dressed up all white and they like to listen to my voice over the intercom because it is soothing and feels like music in their ears. Beginning 2005, I started to experienced a lot of the symptoms that was described of how one is becoming ascension or awakening. Since 2011, I started to learn and became a Reiki and Theta healer.

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This is me!!! Nancy Corbitt

I think I am one too! Because I got same feelings ! Exactly same childhood !

Thank you for "heart-ing" my story. I appreciate it!


I was thinking I am alone ! But now I am sure about myself

This spoke to me so much. I don't know much about life, even though I've had many experiences and met a wide variety of people in my nearly 23 years of living. I always want to help people, help them smile more, etc., but I just never know how I can help.

I feel like i am different, but it's not like the usual "I'm different" teenagers and young ones tell people. I have tried to explain to people who I am and how I see the world...they never seem to understand. many say I am "naive" or innocent-minded because I always want to find the better of people or help them realize they are more than what they see themselves as. I always think, "Is it wrong to want people to see that life isn't just dark, and that light exists?"

I just never seemed to "fit in" anywhere. When it comes to such things as what is being discussed above, what if someone was diagnosed as being Bipolar? In 2010, I was diagnosed with it. But, it seemed as if another emotions were coming through me. Sometimes, I never had a reason to be depressed, angry, etc. Besides, I hate feeling such feelings. I thrive off "bright emotions", if that makes sense. I felt that no counselor could even understand who i was.

And, ever since I was little, I had "odd" experiences. Dreams I had came true, I would see things and hear things that I just knew were not from this world (today I believe such things are from the Spirit World), could "feel" another's emotions no matter how greatly they would try to hide sadness, anger, etc., and that's only the surface of my experiences...

Does anyone have any information they could give? I'm willing to exchange e-mail address(s), facebook names, etc., if you'd like. I'd just like some answers.

Thank you for reading!

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I know when god is with you you just cant smile that wide, the love is so that what is happening in your life is no more but this feeling of pure love,i know what love is and I wont find it with anyone but god .and that is the true some day I will feel gods love again...

I can't believe there are so many like me but I've been so alone all my life! I was told recently by another angel that I am an angel. I was actually able to read his mind while we were in a class together, first time I have ever done that! He thought it was funny and just shrugged and said it's because I'm an angel. He started to explain it and then I did a lot of reading Doreen Virtue. It makes sense that angels would choose to reincarnate into human bodies right now. If people tell you that you have an absolutely angelic look about you and a glow, then you should read Doreen Virtue's books. You will also look much younger than you are. In fact, Right now you might seem to be reverse aging lately. Like me, you might have a strange ability, like heal trees by hugging them And sending them love. You might get constant messages when Meditating. I think it's from Arch angel Gabriel. When you learn who you are you will be able to manifest things much faster. An angel never really fits into their earth family. In fact my parents sent me to a foster home at 15. You may have been teased and ignored by others for being horribly shy. You may feel everyone's emotions. It used to be too much for me to be in public. I had to learn to put a shield around me as dark entities will come at me and try to enter my body. It's because they love the light. The dark energies want to go home to the light so when they see us they think we can send them home. It's pretty terrible until you learn how to keep them out. You have a huge job here. The world is so asleep to the spiritual war that is going on. It's a difficult task to try and stop all the pain and sadness. Try every day with everyone you meet to bring a little bit of the light to them. Many angels wish for home and try suicide. You will realize why You feel so alone and out of place now. You now realize what that constant "homesick" feeling is. It's ok. It's such a short time we are here. I get a high being around other angels, so if we meet, I will know who you are. :) spread love to the world!

I am sure of who and what i am. Through years of self discovery due to alienation and a strong feeling of being alone because of my differences from people. I began to understand it at an early age. Large crowds have always been difficult for me because i am able to feel others feelings. Especially when they are hurt, lonely or sad. Ive always known that i am supposed to help people. Their violence i find disgusting and yet i can understand why God loves them so much. Through prayer i have discovered that we know hurt and lonliness so that we can empathize with those that need our help. I could go on and on, but my knowledge is something that i do not need validation on from anyone. This is the first time i ever went on the internet to find this information. I did it when my fiance looked it up. I told him about my discovery and he too fealt that my situation was extraordinary. Thank you for your post. I do have one question for the rest of you....have any of you been taunted or excessively bothered by demons?

Yes! This is how it was explained to me by an energy healer: Negative energies and entities are attracted to us because we are the light here on Earth. They want to go home-as everything comes from God- and they see us as the light that can send them back. You must learn to place a shield around yourself every morning before you go out. I do a meditation to place a Muharic shield around myself. If you send me your email address I will send you the meditation. My email is heidishappyplace at

Hello, nice to meet you; I am Gabriel.

Nice to meet you too...

This is my story, [Zara Anzel] but I didn't find out about myself and put it all together til I was of great age. It was a great comfort and explained so much. I can always tell when in the presence of another. The Graces be with us all.

I feel like we will all unite to accomplish somehing

I feel the same way. Only it's like they were there and now there gone Like i can still feel them.. i had a person come To me while out 18 days in the everglades (Florida), this person people would argue to be mentally challenged.. he came to me while i was appreciating the bright stars that you wouldn't normally see in the city.. and he said distinctively to me. "Hey Lee you wanna know what you are ? ( i said what am i) he replied; You're an arch Angel in God's army". I obviously brushed it off as nonsense, but as my life unfolded i found myself reminded of this moment at random times.. it seemed weird but undeniably true,. I am No where near perfect but i can't deny there's a strong purpose for me here maybe to lead people home. it's like I have scripture in my heart without going to church..details in conflicting religions are hurtful and not 100% accurate i can just feel it.. compassion is the key..

Hi I'm the head angel over gods army and the last prophet ,I've always had gifts as a child I could sens and see spirits and ive always had shadow people ,in 1996 my father choked me to death and it was dark blue 5:30 in the morning I saw the bright light shining down at me and I saw a shadow in the light he told me its not my time he will tell me when it's my time and I woke up .so I stayed close to god in 2011 I had been sick with pancreatitis and I went to church after praying two weeks before and the Aposal had tuned me higher in the spirit prayed for me being sick and asked me if I got all my answers and before I could answer he told me that god had anointed and ordained me to minister and that the FLOCK would be international and that they will come to me and that I was going to go thru transitions and I will be able to heal others, it's been three years and god heald me of stage 4 pancreatic Cancer its been gon since 12/29/11and I thank God for everyone and every thing god has put in my life.

My name is thomas

hey I always feel like I have wings on my back and always shrug my sholders

my story bgins as a baby in a religious family were I was pronounced dead at three months. nan said a prayer over me and I sneezed and came back to life and since then I have sen many miracles. iv sen the virgin mary at 7 ive had near death experiences but nothing happened. I feel different to my friends and have sen many visons with God and Christ. I always get told that im an angel and always have this feeling of wings on my back.

hey this is cool

When I was younger, about 9 years old, I was playing a game with my so-called friends...It was football, I thought of leaping forward twenty feet. I opened my eyes & thought I was just thinking it, but here I was floating in the air, right at my friend. Over 16 near death experiences I have survived, while being mocked & judged by people my entire life, some people say it gets better as you get older, that is not true for me, infact, it's gotten worse since I've gotten older. Women have always avoided me & neglected me & would never even so much as go out on a date with me, people have always been nasty & vile & mean to me, to the extent that some people found out I was raped & molested by what was supposed to be my biological father as a child & some who pretended to be my friends would even get my so-called family to tell them about it, so they could bring it up & laugh about it in my face. Do you people understand how difficult it is to learn patience when you have the strength of twenty men? It is like hearing little doggies yip at you & they want to hurt you because they feel some jealousy or pride or they think it's funny to see you hurt.

When I was younger, a kid bullied me even, him & his friends threw rocks at me at the playground, it made me poop my pants & I asked the teacher before that even happened that day if I could use the bathroom, he denied me & then laughed in my face after what happened, the little bastard wouldn't even help me, then my mom even came around & yelled at me for defending myself. No offense to the kid or angels but I don't think I'm like most angels on Earth, where they refuse to take vengeance, I crushed the kids head with a fist sized stone & watched his movements like some stalking ravenous beast, seeking out the vengeance & love that was denied to me since I was born in to this planet.

I have every qualification, anger wise & emotion wise to fulfill the scripture...but I came to realize one thing. It is not the future generations fault, therefore, I've had to learn to let go & forgive & learn love from Jesus & God & to know I am not alone like I was in that dark place I saw before the bright flash of light when I was six years of age.

Fact is, I've never felt at home on this planet & I don't think I will until God's kingdom crashes down on the statue & removes the sin & death & hate in this world...All I want, All I've ever wanted, was to have peace & to not have Satan constantly whispering his heinous lies in to my head, acting through other people...For me, to forgive & learn how to, is difficult because I know I am can fight & hurt people easily....but the act of learning temperance is important.

I SWEAR TO GOD I THINK IM AN ANGEL. Listen to my story and then listen to me for your questions i will help. I am an angel. I had the same expierences growing up as a child as elizebeth. I do not feel like going into it. Angels do not no how to handle pain sometimes. it is not what they are used to. so they handle it in weird ways. by staring into lights as a child. i swear i would just stare at the lights. had the best of friends but always felt alone. the only person she felt closest to was ones father because he took away emotional suffering. because one believes he is an angel aswell. im going to fix what i can and i think angels are the best theropists becasue they lead light. right into the souls core. now we are not all angels and i truly think there are only some out there. atleast on earth. put hear for a reason. to heal emotional pain and heal souls.

There are good angels & there are bad angels....there are even angels given the ability to choose between good & evil, like myself.

The thing is, it's all about choices, friend. We choose who we want to follow & the consequences; be it good or bad, that come along with our own choices. An angel has a burning sense of purpose that drives them to near insanity unless it is acted out. For an angel, it is not an act of release, it is an act of remaining sane in a world that has become a polluted place, filled with so much adultery & evil intentions.

We're in the end times but as to how long it is until...I can not say, I only know that now, is a time, when even the lukewarm angels must make a stand.

I have chosen to side with God & Jesus but Satan will always make people take their posts given to them. I refuse to be the cause of millions of Deaths. My right arm is the same as what's described, I never did focus in one eye either, I'd always be looking through one or the other, even when both were opened, I could differentiate between the two, at one point, I preferred the left, as my right eye was blurry & felt damaged.

I just want, honestly, for all of the suffering to end, I am not going to fulfill a role that causes that much pain on Earth...I've had enough pain in my life, it's why god & Jesus would not let me die, they knew my heart better than anyone, while I may have been bitter, I was not with a heart that sought vengeance.

I too am an angel incarnate in human form. I can identify myself in all you've experienced and written and it is also confirmed that I AM.

Hi,I'm not entirely sure if I'm an angel incarnate but I have always been drawn to angels,not the fan girl kind but the my-inner self-is fine whenever I see angels. I kept on telling people that I hated going to catholic schools (because that's where they usually send me) but deep inside I feel "collected" in a good way. Like I know that I'll do something good for the people around me. I was even weirded out when my first grade teacher picked me to play as one of the angels during the procession for our school and when I asked her why,all she said was "you seem like one" (but I think I'm not.because unlike Elizabeth,I wasn't shy,I was always cheerful). I've always been drawn to them in some ways and I love reading about them. And yes I sometimes feel different from the others,like I always project a mean version of myself but deep inside I know I shouldn't. I keep on saying that I don't like going to church on Sundays but the truth is,I want to be there,I love singing praise songs,I love imagining myself with wings,I even want to name my future kids from the angels Uriel and Cambiel and I don't even know why,my college friends even said I could pass off as a nun but I just smile and say "No,I'm vile and the sisters will kick me out in ten seconds flat." Is it just me and my love for reading and knowledge that made me this way?

You should never feel ashamed to be glad to know angels, they are helpers of mankind....and destroyers at the same time.

As it is written, there are the rebellious angels that turned from God & directly defied their posts given to them so as to come & impregnate & make wives of the daughters of men.

I would be careful with a lot of this information, as we are nearing the end of the age of this evil adulterous generation, even the anti-christs begin showing themselves....I was one before, I repented & am saved but I can not speak for others. I know that Jesus loves us & only wants us to do good, but to demons....they don't understand that, they have no way to understand it because they delude themselves with blindness.

I am one who has walked the path of evil & good & chose good over evil. I find that there is more benefit in creating than in destroying or deconstructing...You want to know who's really unhappy right now?

The adversary because I set his plans back by MANY MANY illicit times. Only this time, I interferred with the NWO agenda backed by HaSatan MorningStar, the fallen one who lured mankind to it's demise.

One final thing, DauntlessK. Never feel discouraged from learning the truth & doing so with vigor, for in the Christian bible, it is also written for one to be not lukewarm but either hot or cold, let your yes be your yes & your no be your no, anything else does not come from the holy father.

The thing that's wrong about Catholicism is that it teaches people should repay their sins over time, which is not true, forgiveness is immediate. It also teaches to worship statues, which is also called idolatry. I am not being a faultfinder but you are a nicer person than I have ever been in my entire life, so I would share this information instead with you, who has good intentions but will be taken advantage of by people who seek to use you to further their own carnal Earthly agendas. My agenda is the same as the holy fathers, the same as Jesus Christ, the same as any other angel...the overall return of Jesus Christ & for God's kingdom to be set up, I hate sin & death in this world. I hate that Satan has made me the primary target of his hatred & knowing I must love & forgive even him....Truly, this life is a test of ones own temperance.

My whole life, I've been rejected by women, told by some that I am SOOOO hot, they dont say anything to my face. I've been mistreated in more ways than I care to explain...For me to truly get your attention, you must read both of these in separate conjunctions, for even the books were not written at once but had the contents already premade by God.
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I am who I am & I can be nothing else except that, people can accept me for who I am or get lost, not all angels are tasked with being nicey nicey, some times firmness must be established, if only for righteous reasons.

I know I am not physically ugly, but I do not enjoy having my chain jerked around by people that don't mean what they say. Either I am wanted or I'm not. I do not have room to dilly-dally worrying about either, especially not being with women anymore, as they seem to enjoy sitting from a corner, pointing their fingers at me, & I know they do because my ears can hear over 100,000 MHZ of sound. You really don't want to know how irritating a bat shriek is to my ears....Suffice it to say, I can hear what they say, they have done nothing but mock, judge me, some even have had the audacity to call me, I quote this too, "********* loser...whys he over here around kids?"

Some times I want to grab the person by the face, throw them down a flight of stairs & then explain nothing to them...but I always simply walk by, they always act like they've got it worse when they care little to know even a single thing about me, it is ignorant judgment & they will be judged in likeness before Jesus Christ when he is staring them in the face, for halting the efforts of one who has tried to become a helper of mankind. It is not just one person, it is thousands over the course of my life time, some even did it because they learned what happened to me as a child, by some one who was supposed to be my biological father, yet Christians like that kid spout one thing about a near death experience & every man & woman starts rubbing each other with arousal over it, while I've & many other people suffered far worse at the hands of people. This is how you know false prophets from the true ones, the true prophets do not ever do this for fanfare but instead for understanding, they do not do it for glory for themselves, they do it to glory God & Jesus, they do not do so to add to their own personal wealth, they would DO SO to give money to those who truly need it. It tells me how selfish this race has become in recent years of moral decline.

I have never had any real friends on this planet, not one person even says hello to me on the streets, they instead stare at me & judge me & some people say it gets better when you get older, the very opposite has happened to me, it has only gotten worse. Those who know nothing about me, come against me to accuse me of their slander, what wrongs have I done to them, I would constantly ask but then I realized that I do not have the issue but instead, they are only adding stripes to their judgement when God & Jesus both give to those according their works, be it inventions of wickedness or of righteous moral uprightness.

You be the one to ask God & Jesus what your purpose is, my purpose is to suffer isolation, rejection from women, which the rebellious angels never faced before & come out of it praising God & Jesus. I don't think I'll ever get a wife, honestly, I want something like that but it seems like asking for the impossible. I have dealt with things fifty times worse than this though, of which I still do not want to share.

I believe in them,being both saviors and destroyers,I was saved by an angel (my family thinks so) when I was only 7 months old,it's a story that's been told by my mom and my auntie 's who used to babysit me because we lived in the same house,I was 7 months then,I had a cradle made of rattan (it's a thing here in the Philippines,we call it duyan),the said cradle has strings and hooks so you can hang it,my mom was busy preparing breakfast when our dogs started barking,when she went to the terrace to check (it's where she usually hangs my duyan) she saw that the strings to my duyan were cut and what surprised her was that my cradle was on the terrace pebbles and I wasn't hurt,my cradle didn't topple over and she saw me sleeping peacefully,what triggered her curiosity was that when she came out,she saw something luminous floating over my sleeping baby body,she couldn't picture out what that was and up until now,she wonders if that could've been my guardian angel,looking after me,seeing that I wasn't hurt.

I also read that there is a "ringing" in the ear,Is the ringing like the annoying **eeeeeeeee** sound that kind of happens when you switch to a t.v. channel that's usually off air,I usually have them,sometimes when I'm really mad and I feel like crying or sometimes just out of the blue. It also happens to one of my cousins.

The sound you're hearing is actually connected with the fact that your chakras are becoming attuned to the Universal energy of God. Just as when, in the old days, people turned the dial of their radios in order to "tune in" with a particular station, so is your body being attuned a clairaudient ability to directly commune with God and angels. That's great.

Does it have a message in it? How will I know to "decode" them or it's just me accidentally getting a signal because it's too strong? Like when a phone can connect wifi with strong signals?

Meditate to God and pray to God more. Then you will be able to receive messages that you will easily understand. You shouldn't have to "decode" anything.

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quote...I never belonged here, I want to go home. I just came to visit and do as much of Gods work as possible

You may not belong here, exactly, but you did volunteer to help. Doing whatever you can do to help during your sojourn here on earth is a good thing, and it takes time. Archangel Michael wants you and me and all of us to have a good attitude. As long as you're here anyway, you might as well do the best you can to love, help and guide others in a very positive direction! Love and Blessings...

That's exactly how I was and then I found Zara and she confirmed it.

hey rrrm why am I a messed up angel I try........I....have......nobody but the peeps in my head.....rrrrrmmmmm im not playin im just.........why am I messed up?

You are not the same as them, there are angels that have a burning sense of justice, given to them by God. Remember the flaming sword of gabriel? HE WAGED WAR against those who were evil & laid waste to evil cities like Sodom & Gomorrah that practiced their sexually immoral ways. I think it was Gabriel that did that anyway, I don't always remember scripture the best but I do know the overall intent.

Also, you're not messed up in the head anymore or less than I am. I've been treated worse than what was written in these postings, yet I still come out to forgive. I had a massive sense of hatred toward humankind for a while but I realized with the help from God, it was not hatred AT humanity, it is HATRED at the actions they take upon one another, their lack of compassion.

I smile pretty big when children are laughing, I trust children but when it comes to adults, the same distrust always re-forms. So some people just have different paths, mine is more oriented toward children, as I am also a childhood abuse victim & toward animals, because animals I connect with more than with human beings.

People have always cast their judgments at me too, you know. I can hear dog whistles & bat shrieks & it hurts my ears enough to give me ask yourself this, if I can hear that, how challenging must it be to learn to drown out peoples judgmental words?

It's difficult at times. I agree with you! I just think the best advice I can give you is to persevere anyway, and try your best to find good and loyal friends to surround yourself with!

Hi, I am one of them. It took me 20 years to figure out why I was different. Who would have guessed. Not me. Every thing in your blog is what i've experienced.

That is totally awesome, BeAngle. Thank you for letting me know that my article touched you, and really meant something to you!

That was nice. I did a spiritual healing with 2 healers on Tuesday and one of the things spirit said was I am a walking angel. So I googled it. I think it was meant that I'm just nice. But I really like the idea of had been a angel. Love what you wrote

I'm glad my words spoke to you, Lily. That's wonderful!

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I never know if it exist until my sister and some of my friends told me this kind of things. And i feel exactly the same like you've said. Quite dont know what to do? But thanks for sharing this info. .

I'm the one who brought this information forth --in 1996. I've been copied by others who did not credit me with being the first. Nevertheless , I have the true information; and you can read more on my site:

I don't need your credification, Zara. There are ways of telling if I am being lied to or not, many, Many, Many ways. I am an angel that walked both Dark & light. I choose instead to walk the path of angel of lukewarm decision to hot or cold is considered an example to others to be decided.

If I feel enough warrant to study something & preach the word of God for three and a half years...of which, has not ended yet, I will continue, even at times when my physical bodies health declines, I was not meant to come here to be healthy, I think. I think I came here in the way I did so as to test people, to test their compassion & I have found there is compassion in this world, thus is why when I was given my stone, God named me, James the compassionate. Compassion can be harsh or kind, it is still compassion either way. I am now just wanting Gods kingdom to come here, I feel physically frail & tired, like I am subjugated, like all of my native american brothers & sisters on this planet related to me that are oppressed by a government that adheres to MorningStar HaSatan, the adversary who became the polar opposite of Jesus The Christ, As the bible calls him, Jesus Christ, he is lord of lords & king of kings, my life is a testimony as a witness to his glory & power, for if not for him & God, the 16 times I nearly died, would have only been fewer, God gave me the strength when the window broke in the kitchen, it was summer, I was 18 years of age. My mom forgot to tell me that she put a nail in the window because she was paranoid about mexicans, which is fine because my biological sister is a tweaker & a thief of the methamphetamine's variety, who ironically enough hung out with abunch of people that were of a hispanic descent....So basically, my wrist got gouged out by the broken window...and it was only by a milometer that the glass grazed the vein in my wrist, My mother seems to think I've forgotten the details of what happened but I don't forget the good or bad people do to me, I have a long list of memories involving both.

I survived by tearing my shirt off of my chest with my mouth & one good hand, the hand I can't even DRAW OR COLOR with anymore, tying it around my arm to cut off circulation, using my one arm & sudden intense will, I leaped up over 7 feet in to the house, tossing glass pieces in to the nearby fence behind me, I had to dial 9/11. I am not willing to share anymore details, as I still relive that pain in my mind if I think about it.

Did I forget to mention that my mother, treated her, who stole her diabetic syringe needles, like she was better than me? She took off, leaving ME & my mom, knowing she had back & carpal tunnel surgery, of which both cases were the same, what irritates me the most is how my mom & her both got on my backside when I tried to speak wisdom to them, acting like I wasn't invited there, even though my mom asked me & manipulatively said she would get me soda, only to get me so angry I walked home, asking me why I was angry with her, as if she had no clue. If there is one thing I've learned in life, it's that I have a very thin line of patience when it comes to the way people treat each other & myself for that matter.

Satan has been trying to assassinate me since I was young, emotionally, Spiritually, Mentally & even through other people. He knows what I represent & he knows that people will listen to me, he even tries to dissuade me from telling other people this because of the hurt & pain & torment I've been dealt at the hands of people, however, I laugh straight in his face. There is nothing he can to do to me that has not already been done by those people, I've lived in a hell on Earth, being judged & having fingers constantly pointed at me.

I can hear up to 100,000 MHZ of sound last I checked, so when I walk by & hear what people say, it's ALWAYS the same thing, they call me a *********, when I do NOTHING to them. It's not my fault that their foul-tempered little demonic children HAPPEN to live near me. If I were like I were in my old ways, I'd have crushed their skulls with a rock, As Cain did to Abel for causing me such emotional distress. No one has offered me any true comfort on this planet in my sufferings except God & Jesus. Even when people pretend to be understanding, I can always sense it, they're thinking in their heads, that I am some liar, even then, they don't have the pair to say it to my face. I am not like most angels where I can simply just forget how I've been treated, but at least I know God will vindicate all of my pain unto the people that have made life unbearable, I have no sympathy for them, because they are THE ONES by choice that lets the devil talk them in to abusing one of Gods own chosen helpers. I did not even ask to have this life to begin with, it was forced upon me, at least that I can remember, so ask yourself if I really enjoy being here or not.

I am tired, worn-down, Downtrodden by women & their emotional & manipulative headgames, Physically my health declines, I am constantly judged, so I am going to overcome this world. Where no one cared even a shred about how I feel on this planet, my feelings will not get hurt by God because unlike people, God & Jesus never lied to me for their own selfish gain. Some people ask me why my faith in unshakeable, the answer is always the same, "Humans are incapable of being trusted with making their own decisions, when I am relinquished of this life, I will be making an account of all the good & bad done to me in life & they will be given their rewards according to their works." One who has suffered & did nothing to create warrant for it to begin with should have been helped & treated better in life, just like the woman in this post. As it is written, Angels are not always the same but punishments are more heavier for them then it is for humans.

The true being sent down here, to this hell on Earth. THIS is Hell in my opinion. Being shown a black void & then a bright flash of light, only to see through the eyes of a child. My stories would take too long to write down, to even speak them would take longer. Know this that eternity is a lot longer than you could ever comprehend, there is no sense of time anymore..So, I will say this one last time before I am going to collapse from physical exhaustion....Life, is about choices, the choices that we make that either help or break people down, this adds to peoples stripes at the final judgment, even when Jesus is judging us.

So if you want to go on about suffering, just go take a look outside in this world at all the starving & downtrodden people that have been forced to live under subjugation for generations, like native Americans, under the oppression of a satanic government that plans on murdering innocent people by the millions at the guillotine or worse.

I will never be silent, not after what I saw & heard happened to those homeless people. The government has no right to ship off people that are trying to survive in a world that has been ravaged by humanities adulterous & evil creed. It is bad enough that I have to see the enslavement of my people in this country based on freedom & belief in God, while I hear the president himself openly mock God on the microphone, claiming this is an islamic country, if what I heard is not correct, means he is openly blaspheming against the god of ancestors Jacob & Israel even. What sort of ego must a person have to get up & mock God openly like that. Isnt it the governmental system that has caused all of these issues with their lies & agendas? Was it not bad enough that my brothers & sisters must go through this, now the israelites are facing persecution too?

Guess so that it's worth it because it is written that every tear will one day be wiped away & there will be no more sadness, there will be no more disease, there will be no more death.

I can not respect something if it has been the cause of countless millions of suffering in this world, not when I learned that the rockefeller family, also who backs up the U.S reserve mint, provided funds to help hitler do what he did, MY GRANDFATHER fought & SHED BLOOD in WWII, that's what my mom told me, I know her to be some things but a liar is not one of them. He admitted to what he saw in area 51, little men with almond shaped eyes & strange devices that had no conventional openings, what makes me even more curious is how men in black suits with sunglasses show up, driving an olds mobile, hinting threats at a child, through questions. If there's one thing I've learned about those who follow the path of the devil, it's that their word should never be trusted, including mine when the devil was successfully deceiving me. Never again will my eyes shut to the truth of the hurt & pain going on in this world.

Satan will have to kill me himself if he wants to shut me up. That or some disease, either way, I'm not invulnerable by any means, I just happen to be extremely difficult to kill, as my life has proved to myself. I utter these thoughts to you, so you may know that even one as wretched as I was before, can overcome with the love & power of Jesus Christ. I have no want to answer questions, not to be rude but because to even type these, it takes somewhere between one & two hours even to recollect through my thoughts at times.....unfortunately.

So, in conclusion:

Those who are in the service of God are bound by choice too, as the demons who were once angels of God also chose to rebel against him to come down & make wives of the daughters of men. It is all, about, choice. Now, I leave you to reflect upon this. Not so you may make fanfare out of this but think about God & the reality of the situation going on in this planet right now as I type...if you don't believe some parts of what I've stated, go read the book of Job, Satan even answers to God, there is one time when he doesnt & even then he had to answer to him to begin with before he gets cast out of Heaven, which from the state of affairs in this world, has yet to happen.

There's a lot of truth in what you say. There are many things going on that are very strange in this world, and hardly anyone seems to even notice! Very strange things are happening. That's for sure!

Okay first of all im start thinking if im not normal because im feeling hurt if i see someone made a sin. or what i consider as bad stuff. And i feel sad if i see peoples doing bad stuffs. I cant play with girls. i mean i fell in love with one person. and till now i always love she is the one. And i dont think if i can move from the one i love. and she said and other girl said that. iam too nice.And so do i start thinking if im not i read this. Its like reading the reflection of my self. im not saying if im an engel. Nor a devil. i just think i stuck in a. wrong life. also im a very religious man. strong sense of god. but not specify what my religion is. that i really close to god and almost every second i make contact with god. ive had a dream. I went in a beautiful place. where i dont feel alot of pain and theres a light comes to me like hugging me and i cried and i tell it i saw a lot of bad stuffs in the place ive been.

I have had those similar feelings for as long as I can remember. Even from the time that I think I was 9, I have known Im not like others. Initially, I thought my parents weren't mine but that was wrong. I have a question, though. Do you think there are angel-incarnates who are mean't to protect humans? Im not a leader type person. I know that for sure, but do you think there are warrior angel-incarnates? How do I get connected to the Spirit? I've been driving myself insane for over three years now. I thought I was psychotic, and I didn't know what to do. Im from an insanely Christian family. Belief in another higher power isn't something that should cross our minds. It doesn't really for me, but sometimes I wonder. I do believe in God, no doubt about that, but can other's exist? Do angels and demons exist? They should, shouldn't they? Im so confused and conflicted. Please help. Thank you.

If you think you're psychotic, you'll love hearing what I heard outside of my bedroom window at 2 AM. I think it was 2 AM, thats how it usually looks anyway, I have sleeping issues, this one night, I happen to lock my bedroom window & there is this shriek outside my window....I know that feeling too, my whole body seized up, I knew nothing of God & Jesus then, so the demon had a complete advantage against me mentally & physically but not spiritually.

Know that you are okay & by wondering, you are wanting to become closer to God.