Well, yeah... it's difficult.

It's very hard to find the time and energy to give all that I know I should to the two little ones that need it.  I find that a lot of the time, while I love them very much, I don't really like them.  I desperately want to be my own person - something more than just a mom.

If I had it to do over, I'm not sure I'd follow the same path.
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2 Responses Oct 12, 2006

I understand what you mean. I have a 1 1/2 year old and a 14 year old. I was pretty much set in my schedule before I had my youngest and I believe that if I had it to do all over again I would have just rather not. I know that this sound worse than its intended to...but I am just being real and raw in my level of honesty. I feel like I am doing a jail sentence some days. Most times I just allow my mind to drift off to the days when my child will be in pre school and I will have some of my day back.

How old are your chldren? I f they are 3 or 4 yrs old, then get them to teract,wth you. Get out the crayons and paper,and have them draw a pcture of their choice. Or while they are taking a nap in the afternoon, you could relax and read, or something that is soothing to you. The best thing though is love your children. They are only young once.