I live in a major city and everyday I see couples walking hand in hand together...laughing, hugging, kissing, etc.  Sometimes I'm not bothered, but other times I feel this pang deep inside me...it isn't that someone else holds my happiness...I truly believe that there are needs...for companionship, to be desired and wanted...I won't go into it right here, but if you understood my background, you would know how large this hole is inside me...

I feel that one of the purest declarations of love is simply to know that you are genuinely desired by someone. That person has chosen to love YOU...out of all others around them, as their partner and best friend. I'm tired of being in so much pain. I wish I had some way to increase my confidence, if that is the stumbling block between me and my future love. 

Grin32 Grin32
31-35, M
1 Response Apr 25, 2010

I have to applaud you on a well written insight. I feel the same way too. Sometimes I don't believe who you are as person effects who will fall in love with you. You can have no confidence, a huge ego, or a brooding person and yet someone out there will find you attractive. Love is a funny thing. Cupids arrow is blindly flying to the hearts of people. It's just a matter of time when the arrow catches you. I remember once a few years ago I was waiting for a bus. Sitting outside the bus shed on stone, I wanted to be left alone. Confidence wasn't my best friend either back then (still isn't). Anyways, out of no where this guy came up to me and started chatting. Right then I felt a connection. It was the strangest thing. Long story short, I ran away out of fear. Oh well, maybe cupid will hit me again.