Every Emotion Is Now a Cry

I had a bit of a bad childhood from the age of 5 to 10 and at 13 I had an older violent boyfriend. At the time i had nowhere to go or no one to talk to about both incidents so i used to get so angry and frustrated. I never cried once but would always lash out at objects, punching walls, kicking gates, smashing things on the floor. I had a really bad anger problem but made sure not to take it out anyone. This kind of aggression wasn't good for me as i have now ended up with scars on my knuckles and a lot of bad memories. So one day i sat in my room and i trained myself to cry. I would sit there and try and think of the saddest things. As soon as i started welling up i would then try and think of the root of my anger problem, and i soon associated the crying with my anger. After a few months anytime i felt angry, i just breathed deeply and i would let the tears come. Afterwards i always felt much better than i ever did from hitting things. I love to cry now. So anytime i come across an emotion i don't want to deal with, i use my same technique to get me to cry. It works. Crying is the best thing i could have ever done. It's made me more in tune with myself and more in control of my emotions.

SammyCymru SammyCymru
22-25, F
1 Response Mar 27, 2009

I think crying is really cathartic and am sure it has healing properties