I Was a Carbo-holic, Fat Was My Scar
I am an artist. I can see that nature has it's design and I can see beauty in nature and natural forms. I love to paint animals. Wild animals are not fat.
I can see character in scars. I don't mind drawing scars but do I find them pretty? Er, nope! I see a lot of obese people as drug addicts. Why? I ate for comfort for a long time, I had self esteem issues, it was a cycle... I do not find the scars of my addiction to be beautiful. Should I? I should say I lost a lot of weight whilst taking speed (Amphetamine) from age 15 to 21. It harmed my teeth, should that be considered beautiful? Ok, I need t not give too much importance to it, that is it. It is a matter of being over sensitive about my image. My biggest fault in this is wanting to be unnatractive, whist worrying about not being attractive.. 0.o
I wanted to keep people away from me. I stil wished I was popular, but I wanted everyone to stay away.
I hid food in the clothes in my [closet] and would eatit during the long boring hours in my room. My room was like a cell. I used to shoplift when I was 11-15 and get lots of stuff that would keep , under [closet] conditions... so Chocolate and biscuits...