Could I Be Bisexual?

I've grown up in a Christian home and was always taught that homosexuality is wrong. Now my family never really discriminated against homosexuals in a way like calling them "****" or rude and disrespectful ways like that. It was just understood that it was "wrong" to be one. However, from an early age I've always had some type of fascination with females. When I played with my Barbies as a little girl, I would not only have the guys and girls together, but also the girls would be together as well. But I hid the girl on girl action from friends and family, cause even at a young age, I knew what was accepted and not accepted. And then when I was about 13, I became friends with this girl...we'll just call her Amy. Amy and I became best friends in no time, and after about a year, I realized I might like her as more than a friend. I'm 16 now and am still friends with her, but we're not nearly as close as we used to be. But even now when we hang out, I wonder what it'd be like to kiss her...She's the only actual girl I've met that I've ever wondered that about, though. I mean, I look at celebrities and think "Wow, she's sexy" but not really about any of the people I actually know. And here's the kicker, I'm also verrrry attracted to guys. I've kissed plenty of guys and actually have a boyfriend right now. I'm definitely sexually attracted to guys and get turned on when I'm with them, but also just seeing a picture of a pretty girl in a bikini turns me on! I'm soo confused, and have no idea what to do with these feelings. I know I could never come out as being bisexual right now, I mean, I'm in high school still and people would judge me beyond belief. Plus, I don't want all my girl friends to think that I might be attracted to them when I'm totally not. But then again I'm not sure if I could see myself in a relationship with a girl..not that I would never try it, I think it's just a foreign concept to me because I'm used to guys, ya know? I'll take ANY advice!
gadsome gadsome
18-21, F
May 8, 2012