i'm a 19 year old indian girl living in australia.
i guess i'm writting to you because i think i'm bi. i've notably first started liking girls when i started going to university though looking back on high school i think i liked this girl in particular and at that time just thought i wanted to be really good
friends with her.
i spent all of last year trying to figure out my sexuality and give myself a label and i'm still not sure. the truth is i've never been in a relationhsip with any sex for that matter but thats not uncommon in my culture. my mum still thinks i'll marry the first
person i date. coming out bi (though i'm not sure i am) would be death for me because i would be ostracized from my community as well as my parents though if i'm lucky my parents will eventually accept me. despite the fact that being gay in my community
is seen as taboo, i've grown up in the australian culture thinking that there is nothing wrong with being gay.
i've definitely fantasized with being with other girls and have liked guys in the past. i think about my sexuality everday so i don't understand as to why i'm not sure yet when i think about it sooooo much! A lot of people say that labels aren't important and i totally agree so i guess the question is do i like girls? when i ask myself this,
i start thinking 'how does one know that?' so i don't even know if i like girls. how does one define themselves when they like someone?
i'm been contemplating for a while whether i should tell a close friend because i haven't told a soul for the past two years but what do i tell her if i'm not sure either? sometimes when i have crushes, it kills me that i don't have anyone to talk with. though if i open up, i'll feel like the biggest idiot if i say 'i think i'm bi' but then later tell her that i'm actually straight. so i feel the need to be certain of what i'm saying is true - hence giving myself the label.
please help me!!!