1st Time Experience

 I've always been a straight guy I'm 21 in college have had great sex with a few girls but I've always had that "I wonder,," feeling when it came to guys, so the other day I don't know why I went with that "I wonder" feeling but I ended up meeting up with a guy I was talking to online. I went to his place he was a chill and good looking guy according to my standards we ended up going in his room and hooking up. So now that thats all over and done with I'm left feeling a little confused. I'm still in my straight mentality but still almost in awe that I allowed myself to do that, I think it was just one of those things where you think about something for so long you have to do it just to see what its like?

I don't know but if anyone ever knew about this I would be DONE. I'm in college and just right now it would turn my life into a living hell. I'm not gonna lie it was fun to do once but I still don't consider myself gay, I still love women I guess I'm just a lot more sexually open than I thought. I'm on here confessing though because I haven't been able to shake this off and its been a couple days and I'm ready to clear my head and move on, so I'm on here confessing to whoever sees I had sex for my first time with a guy 2 nights ago, and now I'm thinking of what women I'll be able to get with this weekend.

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4 Responses Mar 27, 2009

I have been curious for many years, but I have not acted on it. Don't know what it is like to have sex with a man, but maybe it is the ***** thing. In real life I don't seem interested in men, I watch **** and then I start wondering what it might be like to actually do those things that they are doing in the videos. I love women and I have been married for many years. I also dont want to become gay and ruin my marriage. Anyone out there like me?


To know what darkness is you need light and the same the other way round...its all good experience...and to me all experience is good....its ourselves that judge whether its good or bad ....who cares what others think...

Im sure its hard. But, its not worth worrying bout what others think. do some soul searching and trust yourself. In the end its only you, you can trust.

i am so like you.