I Think I Am In Love
1. getting fat
2. feeling insecure. my self esteem was all right before the relationship, now it's just going down. and he is NOT a bad guy.
3. fearing of the first fight, fearing of being to clingy and because of that behaving totally opposite which leads to complex and dishonest communication
4. seems i see the process of falling in love as a weakness. i know, horrible. would love to change this but it seems to be very deep in me
5. feeling dependent.
6. not knowing the rules: how much time together is enough time; what is a big deal and what is not; what is a reason for worry and what isn't...
7.feeling very very very fragile.
these are all my issues that had repeated in all the relationships i had. some of these issues actually make me a very good girlfriend, as i was told.
but i would just like to relax for a while, for once in my life - this is getting to tiring and i'm contemplating about giving up on relationships...
to be totally honest - i feel happy, secure and loved while with friends and family. what they cannot offer is pampering, cuddling, sex - but is getting all this worth all of the above mentioned feelings?
anyways. i just realized this is my third story on the same subject. huston, we have a problem:D
2. feeling insecure. my self esteem was all right before the relationship, now it's just going down. and he is NOT a bad guy.
3. fearing of the first fight, fearing of being to clingy and because of that behaving totally opposite which leads to complex and dishonest communication
4. seems i see the process of falling in love as a weakness. i know, horrible. would love to change this but it seems to be very deep in me
5. feeling dependent.
6. not knowing the rules: how much time together is enough time; what is a big deal and what is not; what is a reason for worry and what isn't...
7.feeling very very very fragile.
these are all my issues that had repeated in all the relationships i had. some of these issues actually make me a very good girlfriend, as i was told.
but i would just like to relax for a while, for once in my life - this is getting to tiring and i'm contemplating about giving up on relationships...
to be totally honest - i feel happy, secure and loved while with friends and family. what they cannot offer is pampering, cuddling, sex - but is getting all this worth all of the above mentioned feelings?
anyways. i just realized this is my third story on the same subject. huston, we have a problem:D
By:
belzebub
Age:
26-30
,
Female
