My Friends And Family:

It's hard to think you're beautiful when, ever since you were a child your mother has called herself fat infront of you and you see the similarities in weight between the two; when your father andmother both comment on your weight and how you need to watch what you eat and need to exercise more; when all your friends are thinnner than you are and are way more beautiful in your eyes; and when no one flirts with you face to face...
Lonliness Lonliness
18-21, F
8 Responses Jul 12, 2010

I was looking in the mirror today while washing my hands, as I often do, and for the first time in a long time, I felt beautiful and speical. When I was finished with this thought and heading back to my room I asked myself what changed and being away from my parents has opened my eyes to the beauty I've had all along but just couldn't see. I think I'm going to like it here.

So it's been about a week since I started trying the whole "21 minute" thing and so far it hasn't been going to well. I just can't stare at myself for that long. So, I've moved to looking in the mirror for 1 minute saying I'm beautiful 21 times a day. I have post-it notes on my mirror that tells me more confident things about myself and it's been working for the most part.<br />
I've also decided to make myself a goal. I thought of it the other day when I was on sixbillionsecrets.com. When I have gained enough self-confidence I'm going to go out in public in a bikini. I am nervous, terrified and excited to do this but I think of it as my final test. If I can actaully go out and do this, it means that I am ready and that I am finally confident in myself and with my body, stretch marks and all.

:) I'll try and keep you posted :) Thanks guys

Gets easier every day. What do you have to lose?

I'll try DogAZ. Though, I'm not sure I can say it like I mean it...

Pay attention to what Miss Unfocused says. She knows what she's talking about. Look yourself in the mirror for 21 minutes per day. Tell yourself you're beautiful. Say it like you mean it! Do this for 21 days in a row. Then get back with us. OK?

Thank you Unfocused. That helps and I will try, however I haven't had that kind of self-confidence since the 5th grade...so it might be a challenge..

I also have friends who are thinner than me and are beautiful in my eyes... my family constantly complains about loosing weight even when they dont need to... the thing is i had to tune them out... there was a point during my 1st two years of h.s. where i didn't have any one to flirting with me...then one day i was watching something and i saw this girl with so much confidence in a room full of thin and beautiful women... and men kept trying to buy her drinks asking her for her number... and i realised then that its not about what others think of you, its what you think of yourself... once you have love for yourself then the rest will come naturally... as for your friends, they seem something in you or else they wouldn't hang around you...