Nine Years, It Gets To Me. It Hurts.

I will be outgoing. I will be myself. I will not just sit in a corner and just wait for people to judge me. And I do those things. But even though I am confident, I will never feel pretty. I'm overweight. So I get tortured. I'm a sophmore right now, and I have been made fun of since the second grade. After that long, it sticks in your head. After each and everyday of someone giving you a new insult. It twists your head. And because I've let it effect me for this long, I think it's going to stay there. I've never felt pretty. And I don't think I ever will.

I wish I was pretty. I wish that everytime I look at myself in the mirror, I can be happy with what I see.

But wishing isn't going to get me anywhere. I will never be pretty :(…
missbeccabooo missbeccabooo
13-15, F
1 Response Aug 13, 2010

I was in your shoes two years ago. I felt as if I would NEVER lose the weight. Honey, what you need to is look at it as if it's one day at a time. Don't look at it as if you're taking on the world. Don't look at it as if you're going to lose THIS many pounds. Start small. Walk around a little bit. Change your eating habits slowly, don't drop sodas all at once. Do it for you, not for anyone else. And if you feel like you need to be pretty to be happy then get your *** up and start! No time like the present. Best of luck, and remember. You're beautiful.