I'm Disgusting.

I don't think I'm ugly, I know I am. Inside and out. I wake up every morning, feeling and knowing how utterly disgusting I am. I try to avoid mirrors as much as I can because I don't like what I see. I hate who I am, wish I could've went back in time and changed half of the things I've done. I envy people who are beautiful in one way or another, if they are beautiful inside and out. I wish I could wake up feeling different, or happy with myself, or just f*cking happy at all. I struggle everyday with this, it's the only constant in my life, always waiting to wake up feeling bloody happy with myself, or feel anything at all but disgust, pain, and depressed. But, oh well.. I guess life still must go on, eh?

**** it.
DomsTuna11 DomsTuna11
18-21, F
3 Responses Apr 17, 2012

Hey, I don't need a description. I know how it feels. I think I'm revolting. Listen, I'm positive that somewhere along the way, there will be a day when you can look in the mirror and smile. And I have never seen you, but there is something beautiful about everyone, no matter how insignificant it is. I wake up in a mess, I look in the mirror and cry. I have never been asked out. But there are some days I can smile and say "this is me. I am beautiful in my own way if no one else's. You should do the same. Good Luck...and feel better!

O.o You only describe how you are ugly on the outside... maybe you re not as ugly on the inside as you would like to believe? I do not know, you just described my life so.. I am not one to talk.

there's too much negativity in your story.you are a pretty girl...