Happy Girl Living In A Lonely World
So.. I'm finding it hard to write this because on the surface I am a happy confident yet slightly shy at times kinda girl. I always have fun when I am out with my friends. I socialise, I party anythin a normal 18 year old would do really. My family life is stable; everything is fine. it's just I don't feel fine on the inside. Everytime I look in the mirror I feel disgusted. My body,my face. Everything.. I can change my body, just need to lose a few pounds but I can't get over how ugly I look. My face is horrible and I hate my smile.. I love smiling and when someone is feeling upset you tell them to smile, that's kinda hard for me considering I hate my smile.. it really gets me down and sometimes I don't want to go out because of it. I feel so damn ugly, I AM ugly & I cry every night. I don't want to go any further into detail,. I hate sharing my feelings.. I'm supposed to be happy.